Perspective

I have not blogged in awhile just because life is so busy for me always! I miss it but truly sometimes I just don't know how to put things into words. Lately I have been trying to concentrate on my perspective about life. I guess there is alot of truth to the saying "life is what you make it" I am learning that I tend to be an overthinker. It is horrible because I am always thinking one step ahead of where I actually am. I have taken a few steps back and learned to look at the Fall colors for what they are... beautiful! Not look at them and think OMG I hate the drearyness of Fall and Winter. I am gonna learn to embrace it with a different attitude. I tend to come off in person as a postive person but there is always that little negative bitch that lives inside me. I am trying to overcome that.

School started here about a month ago for the twins and a few weeks ago for Dom. The twins are juniors this year and Dom is in his 2nd year of college. I enjoy these years with the kids even tho they can make you crazy. Marco is doing great so far this year he seems to be real focused and is in the medical program at the high school. That boy amazes me! I am so in awe of him and everything he is overcoming. He started Weight Watchers 9 weeks ago and has to date lost 33 pounds. I am so freggen proud of him! I am his biggest fan. I have to sit back and change gears while parenting him tho because he is sometimes like a girl. It is kinda funny to me because never did I think I would be sharing face care tips with my son or sharing the same facial scrubs. Today when he left for school he was worried about his hair because it was raining... he put a grocery bag over his head to run out to the car. It is just funny to me... not in a I am laughing at him... more in a I am enjoying the person he is. I am proud! Marco is not in marching band this year makes me sad but it was his choice. Sarah is not in cheer this year either. This is the first year in about 7 years where I don't have kids in any type of sports and I gotta say I enjoyed it this summer. I am enjoying that we don't have to rush to get anyone where they need to go. Sarah has a new boyfriend that I just love. She is all giggly with him and it is cute. I have a feeling this is gonna be the long term boyfriend. They are very comfortable together and I am comfortable with her being with him. I am learning that I have taught her right and that I have to trust her decisions. She is 17... don't get me wrong I am not throwing her out to the wolves at all... mama is still being mama just learning to let go and let her make her decisions. She is a good girl! Dom well I am trying to teach him about this world we live in, that people aren't always nice and you don't always get your way. He is working hard and going to school doing what he is supposed to do but he is still learning how to be an adult. We have talks or should I say lectures about the importance of him paying his car insurance... they just don't get it. He is learning tho. He is becoming a nice young man. He works at a department store now in customer service. Marco and I went shopping there the other day and the person that waited on us asked if Marco was Dom's brother... Marco said yes... she replied what a nice young man Dom is... Mama smiled real big! I guess what I am saying is my kids are doing good not PERFECT... but good and I am learning to understand their positions and have more compassion for them instead of trying to make everything PERFECT!

Nick is busy at work. I guess the marriage thing is kinda the same... not always blazing happy but content and know that marriage is a roller coaster sometimes. When I go to bed at night I know that I would not want anyone else laying next to me. I love and adore him! It doesn't mean I am always happy with him but I couldn't ask for a better husband.

My niece is getting married in a month and we are taking a trip to northern Michigan for the wedding. My sister had her shower at the end of August and I went. My sister never tried to talk to me or even look at me for that fact. That HURT! I just went along with the day like it didn't bother me but it did. I am so happy for my niece she is marrying a great guy and into a great family. I will not let my sister ruin this day for me at all!

I hope everyone is doing good!

OMG gonna scream

I just lost a whole post... you have got to be kidding me! It was a great one too dammit! I am pissed! I don't have time to redo it so here are the pictures from it and I will have to try to recap it another day. I think I screwed it up with the back to back post about 9/11. Have a good one!

9-11-2001

One more thing... please say a prayer and remember everyone who lost their lives and their families on this tragic day. I remember it like it was yesterday and how devestated I was. Very sad day in history.