Christmas!

I haven't blogged alot lately cuz life is so full. I don't have alot of time to blog at all. Oh yeah, I am also addicted to Facebook so that takes up my computer time. It is so nice to be able to connect with friends from school. I have a blast doing it! We have got together with a bunch of friends like 3 times in the last few months and we are getting together again the day after Christmas. It is fun!

We are getting ready for Christmas around here. I don't know why but I feel guilty about cutting back on gifts this year with the kids. They still have alot of presents but not as many as they normally do. Christmas is not about the gifts anyway. I don't know why I put that pressure on myself... it is stupid! I had my friends over yesterday and we baked cookies all day with the kids. It was a great time but at the end we didn't have alot of cookies because we ate mostly all of them LOL. It was still fun!

I hope everyone enjoys the holiday season. Merry Christmas to everyone or Happy Holidays whichever fits you.

December

December is just flying by... too fast! I have not bought one thing for Christmas at all. Nick and I both have the week before Christmas off so we plan on doing our shopping then. It will be fun and hoping we will get some great deals! The kids aren't asking for any big ticket items they pretty much want money and gift cards. I hate that! I love buying them presents and them getting all excited over it. The only thing Dom has asked for is money for his books for school how humble is that? The weather sure has changed here in the last few days. The high yesterday was like 18! We had the twins concert last night and it was brutal going thru the parking lot. I didn't even want to go I wanted to stay home in my jammies. Today the high is again 20... I hate this weather. It makes me wanna hibernate.

My niece and her fiance are coming tonight for the weekend I am pretty excited about that. I love spending tme with her. I think we are going to make some sugar cookies. I love sugar cookies.

I hope everyone enjoys their weekend!

crabby

I have been a total crab the whole weekend to the point where I didn't even take a shower on Saturday. I pretty much did nothing. I guess sometimes you just need that. I was feeling guilty at like 10:00 that night because I felt I wasted the whole day but like I said sometimes you just need it. I am blaming it on the hormones... isn't it always about the hormones?

Anyway just wanted to say that LOL have a good week!

Finally Friday

I am so glad Friday is finally here! I worked last Saturday and this week pretty much alone and every day til 5:00 I am exhausted! I want to go home tonight and put on my biggest fat pants I have and let it all hang out and let this bloated belly out of these pants. Seriously, I feel like I am gonna explode today... the only good thing is my boobs look huge LOL.

Nick has had the whole week off and he decided to become Clark Griswold. I swear our house is full of lights. The first night he did it I turned the Christmas tree on and blew the circuit. He fixed that by changing the circuit breaker. He is so proud of himself and it does look good just a little excessive. Here is a picture tell me what you think. Marco was embarrased.

I got up last night at 4:00 a.m. to go to the bathroom and Dom met me as I was coming and said "mom guess wht happened to me?" I was waiting for him to tell me he got into an accident. He told me he coasted thru a red light. He said he kept driving and all of a sudden he heard sirens. He got nervous and kept driving then decided he was gonna pull over. It ends up he was being video taped for drivers training classes on what not to do LOL He said the cop came up to his door and had another person with a camera. OMG I laughed my ass off because seriously that would only happen to him. The cop told him he had to give him a ticket because he was caught on video going thru the light LOL but to go to court and fight it becaues he has never had a ticket. Too funny!

I gotta get back to work I hope everyone enjoys there weekend.

Sisterly love

I still have not talked to my sister and yes it bothers me but on the other hand I am kinda over it. I mean I miss her but I am not gonna live my life being sad because she don't want anything to do with me. I feel bad for my mom because this bothers her alot. She tried to talk to my sister before Thanksgiving to ask if she could make up with me. My sister made it clear to her that she wanted nothing to do with me. I told my mom there is nothing I can do about it. I am willing to make up with her but she is not. Therefore, I can't change it. I can only do something about the things I can change. I just feel bad for my mom. My mom did say a funny thing about it tho after she talked to her she said "if she don't make up with you before I die I am gonna haunt her ass". I started laughing because it was just funny!

We had a good weekend! I hope everyone enjoys there week. I am gonna leave you with a picture of Logan he is so damn cute and I get to babysit him Friday night I am so excited!

Thanksgiving!

Our Thanksgiving morning started out pretty early. We left to go downtown at like 7:00 a.m. Marco was in the parade. OMG it was cold! It was like 40 but the wind was really strong and it was killing me. We left downtown at like 11:00 and home by 11:15 to get prepared to have everyone over for dinner. It was weird this year I normally get all freaked out when people are coming over but this year I didn't! It was so nice and I enjoyed everyones company. The food was amazing! I took no pictures tho... I am pissed about that! I normally put my tree up the day after Thanksgiving but the kids are at their dad's house so I have to wait til Monday to put it up! I put it up a few years ago without Sarah and she cried so I was not going to try it again! She would be so pissed.

I was supposed to have a girls night out last night but Marsha wasn't feeling good so we didn't go. I was a little disappointed but so tired that I ended up falling asleep at like 9:00. I got some much needed sleep! I am working now and after Nick and I are going to the movies to see The Blind Spot. I heard it was great!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Happy Thanksgiving!

A day early but I just wanted to come on say Happy Thanksgiving to everyone and I hope everyone enjoys good food and family!

being real

I haven't been posting alot because there is just alot going on. I read this blog today about being real when blogging and for the most part I try to be but lately I struggle with that. The old saying "don't air your dirty laundry" but sometimes you need to. It is theraputic to do so. Starting today I am not only posting when I am happy with things but when I am sad with things too because that is what this blog is for.

Let me start with last week... Marco got a one day in school suspension because he was texting during school. That was not the only thing he did last week. I knew something was going on with him he got into the car on Wednesday night and started crying with his friend in the car and I knew that it was something serious. I stopped the car and told him to tell me what is going on. He said that one of his friends (girl) at school went to the office saying that he was sexually harrassing her. I said OMG what the hell did you do??? Him and this girl (I will call her C) have been friends for 2 years. I mean like BFFs. He said in Science class he said he was horny to his friend and she heard him. If you know Marco you know that sometimes he is innappropriate to say the least. His friend that was with us said but C puts her legs all over Marco during class. Then Marco said yeah and she got mad cuz I was rubbing her leg. Nobody from the school called me about this at all. I told Marco then that he needed to start being more aware of what he was saying and who he is saying it to. The part that makes me mad is we are friends with this family and I was shocked that the mom did not call me and tell me what was going on. I told Marco I was going to call her mom and see what was going on. Before I called her tho I did talk to Nick about it and he agreed that I needed to call her mom. That is what I did. I asked her if there was something going on between Marco and C that I needed to know about. She acted shocked that I was calling her. She said yes C does not like when Marco touches her. I said ok I can understand that because Marco is a very touchy kid. I then said are you aware of C putting her legs all over Marco in class. Of course she was not... actually she sounded shocked! She then said that C called her from school crying and the mom and dad both went up there to her defense. They met with the counselor and the charges were filed. I asked her if she knew how serious those charges are? I told her that I was going to the school the next morning to discuss this with the counselor because I did not want Marco to be labled a sexual harrassment offender. I told her that she will not have a problem with Marco again. I also told her that I didn't appreciate her going to the school instead of coming to me because discipline begins at home. I think she knew I was not happy with her. She told me she was going to call the school and cancel the charges. I called the school in the morning to find out that they thought the charges were bogus anyways. They were not going to make a big deal out of at all. Seriously tho I needed this or Marco needed this. Well maybe Marco did to learn a lesson to watch his behavior!

Lets move on to Sarah... nothing serious just girl drama. She is fighting with her BFF and was showing me texts from her BFF that was just horrible. I felt bad for her but told her I would not get involved in a fight like that. Needless to say, she was moody.

Now for my son Dom. I signed on to my online banking on Saturday to check our balance and found out that someone had used my debit card the night before to withdraw $100.00. I was pissed because I knew it was Dom. I called him and asked him and he said yes. I started screaming at him saying what the hell gives you that right. His response to me was I thought I told you. I was just pissed! Actually beyond pissed! That just set the tone for Saturday. Actually kinda ruined my day. It just amazes me that he thought he did nothing wrong but I had a come to Jesus talk with him and he better never do that again.

That feels better... I mean I do have Nick I talk to about this kinda stuff and my BFF but still I hate coming on here and acting fake like yeah we have a grand life always. There is always something going on. I feel refreshed because that is what I started this blog for to air things I normally can't talk about in person and of course to get other people's feedbacks. Sometimes you just need another persons opinion.

I was going to go after work to try to get my hair trimmed but Sarah just called and said Mom can you drive me to cheer at 5:00. I get off at 5:00 so after that I will drive her to cheer instead of getting my hair trimmed. This is my life LOL and I do love it!

Long time

It has been a long time since I posted anything. It sure has been busy around here and sometimes I just don't have time to put it into words. Halloween was great. It is now almost Thanksgiving and I can't even believe it. Time is just flying by.

The drama has been flying around our house too. OMG these twins are full of drama. If it is not one it is the other one. I NEVER had these issues with Dom. This week alone Sarah and her BFF are fighting. Marco got his phone taken away at school and I had to go pick it up. I waited 4 days to get it and I still have not given it to him. It is so hard to try to stay neutral with their arugments with their friends. I always tell them to be the bigger person and don't argue back but damn you can only do that so long without getting walked on. It really bothers me! For the most part, I just sit back and listen. I am telling you teenagers can be so mean sometimes. It sucks!

I got a new car this week. I had to turn mine in and right now nobody is leasing so we ended up buying one. I have not bought a car in over 15 years. I got the Chevy Traverse and I love it! It is really big on the inside so we fit nicely in it. The bad thing is it won't be paid off for 72 months LOL. I still can't belive that but hey there is no interst right now so that is a good thing. I am also getting a new floor put in today I decided to go with hardwood instead of carpet. I have never had hardwood in the great room it will be different. It is better for allergies tho. I can't wait to get home and see it.

That is all I have time for today. I hope everyone has a good weekend!

talented!

Last night we went to the Fall band/choir concert at the high school. It was amazing! First they had the band and choir up there together. They have 4 different divisions of the band. Then they did a choir skit for Halloween where all the choir kids dressed up, danced and sang on stage. It was wonderful! Marco is in the marching band Sarah isn't she is just in the regular band. After the choir got done they said we have a surprise for you... all of a sudden we heard the drumline rocking it out and they all proceeded to march into the audotorium! OMG I could hardly stay still it was amazing! Marco plays the bass drum on the drumline and they are amazing. I love the sound of them! They went to a competition a few weeks ago and took all 1's! They are marching in the Thanksgiving day parade in Detroit. Just amazing! I am so proud of my kids. They are all musically gifted! I was in band in school too although I didn't take it as serious as they do I wish I would have.

I can't believe Halloween is tomorrow! We plan on having a bunch of kids over before trick or treating. Then the parents are gonna stay have a bonfire and a few beers! It should be fun. We get a ton of kids at our house every year. I love the little ones they are so damn cute!

I hope everyone has a good weekend and a Happy Halloween!

I posted some pictures at the top because I can never get them where I want them lol. One is of Marco in the parade he is the one on the far left. The other is Sarah with her cheer friends. She is in the middle.

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I didn't think the last picture was big enough LOL

Wow

Time goes by so fast I can't even believe it is Thursday and Halloween is Saturday! It just seems like it is flying by! I went my class reunion on Saturday and it was alot of fun! I don't know if I mentioned that in high school I was not nice. I feel bad for it now but there is nothing I can do about it. I teased people... alot! I always cringe about seeing some people because I know they remember how mean I could be back then. I am a totally different person now. I guess it is all the pot I smoked back then or the drinking. See I grew up in a lower middle class area and that is what us kids did back then. The funny thing is my mom had no clue. She still says to this day my kids never smoked pot or drank LOL. I keep letting her think that. Anyway, getting back to the reunion. Nick, me and Marsha drove together. We got there late because I needed a nap so everyone was pretty much there. After being there for awhile Marsha came over and said OMG Henry is here. I was like the Henry we used to tease? See we all thought he was gay and you know that was back then it was unheard of. We were in the 7th grade and he was in my first hour. Alot of my guy friends were in that class too. Most of us being pretty high... isn't that horrible? We got this great idea to find out if he was gay. The idea was they would hold him down and I would kiss him and see his reaction. He ran and cried so we were all sure he was gay. I continued to pick on him thru out high school too. When Marsha said he was there I thought to myself OMG I wonder what he is thinking of me. We went over to him to say and asked if we could take a picture with him. His response when he seen me was you used to always flirt with me. I was like WTH??? He said remember when you kissed me well I never washed that cheek for a week. I was shocked! He is not married and never has been so still not sure if he is gay not that it even matters now. I was just glad that he responded to me with a positive attitude instead of hating me. If I could take it all backI would but I can't. Here is a picture of me and Marsha with him and one of Nick and I.

Have a great day!

blog absent

I know I have not posted in a week and that is not like me... we have been really busy! My kids are keeping me running and running! I am glad football season is almost over that will make life a little bit easier. There have been so many things going on I just don' t know what to blog about LOL.

Lets start with Dom's birthday. He ended up going to dinner with his friends and then they all came back to the house for cake. There was about 20 of them. In Michigan the newer houses only have what we call a great room which is one huge room. So they were all in there and I decided to go in my room and hide LOL. I kept coming out and talking to them because I do truly enjoy them just in small does. The last one left at like 1:30 a.m. We got Dom a Blackberry for his birthday and he is loving every minute of it. The poor kid is exhausted half the time. He took 16 credits this semester. I told him 12 would be enough but ya know what does mom know? He goes to school Monday - Thursday and works Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I was feeling kinda bad for him last week he just looked exhausted.

Moving on to Marco... this kid just cracks me up. He is so full of love for everyone you can't help but love him. This is his favorite time of year. We decorated last weekend and he was in his glory. Nick is a director of Operations for an alarm company so this past week he installed an elite alarm system in our house fully equipped with cameras outside. Marco loves this because every year someone messes with our decorations. Nick has it set up so we can watch it on my TV in my bedroom. You can see like 4 screens. It really is sweet! Last night we got home and the decorations were messed with so when I get home from work we are gonna rewind it to see who was doing it. I can even look at it from work on my computer. I can see if they have people over after school when I am not home... I like it!

Sarah is a monster lately! She is so hormonal she is driving me nuts! Everything I say is not right or not exactly the way she thinks I should of said it. I guess this is what 16 is all about.

Colleen's daugther had her baby today at 2:38 this morning. He weighed 9 lbs. 6 ozs. We left yesterday morning at 6:30 a.m. to go to the hospital. She was induced and we waited and waited and waited. I forgot how long it can take! I had to work today so at like 1:00 a.m. I left to get some sleep and she had it right after that. I have to say I am kinda glad and disappointed at the same time. I guess she turned into a monster. It was hard watching her as it was it makes you feel so helpless. I decided that I never want to watch my daughter go thru that it would kill me. Anyway it was all good he is healthy and so is she!

Tonight is our 25th year class reunion... the official one. I need to go home and take a nap to be ready for it!

have a great weekend!

Friday

I am so glad it is Friday and I am actually leaving work at 12:00... and I don't work tomorrow! I am looking forward to spending the weekend with my family! It has been a busy Fall and I want to decorate. It will be fun! We normally are decorated by now we are just behind. I hope everyone enjoys their weekend :)

Birthday

Tomorrow is Dom's birthday... he will be 19. Did you hear that my baby is gonna be 19! My oldest niece has the same birthday and she will be 23! These kids are getting too old. I was thinking back today of this day 19 years ago. I.felt.like.shit!!!! I was not in hard labor at all in fact my X took me to the hospital with my sister in tow lol. They sent me home at like 5:00 in the morning. Said I was only dilated to 1 but eat light and they were sure I would be back. Well, it was a Sunday and I went home to bed and just pretty much didn't feel good the whole day. Nothing in particular just didn't feel well. Later in the day when we were getting ready to eat I still didn't feel good. We sat down to watch the 9:00 o'clock movie (do u remember those LOL) and I started having some contractions again nothing regular nothing big. I was so not informed back then. They tell you in your birthing classes that when you go thru transition you will say things like I can't do this or shake. I was doing all that at home but because my contractions were not regular the dr said to give me 2 tylenol and send me to bed. I got up to go to bed it was about midnight and I went to the bathroom and I puked, bleed and had diahareea at the same time. I told my X I am not going to bed you are taking me to the hospital. This was a joke in itself because I didn't even have a bag packed. He had to take a shower and get all fancy before we left and I was sure I was dying in the hallway of our apartment. It was a 45 minute drive to the hospital. I got there, they checked me in and told me to go change in the bathroom. Once I got in the bathroom I could not move. I seriously just laid my head over the handicap rail and cried. The nurse came in to help me. I got in the bed the dr came in to check me. Her exact words were I am gonna break your water and you can start pushing. I was like WHAT!!! She said your dilated to 9. I was shocked!!!! I thought I was being a big baby. It turns out I wasn't LOL. My X was not even upstairs yet from registering me. So as soon as he got in the room I started pushing and the next thing I knew I was flying down the hall to the delivery room. We get into the delivery room I continue to push then all of a sudden the dr says stop. Well what the hell how do you stop that??? Then he said the cord is wrapped around his neck twice. I STOPPED!!! I continued once he got it from around his neck. I never said anything harsh to anyone not one word out of the way until.... I sat up and looked down at the dr and said excuse me... he said yes... I said do you have your finger up my ass... he had this look of terror on his face. The room was totally quiet and he answered no. I said well it sure the hell feels like it. Then the whole room cracked up. After about 5 pushes Dom was born. It just amazes me to look back and think about it. It seems like yesterday and I can remember every detail vividly.

So Happy Birthday to my big man!!!!! I love you more than you will ever know or I could ever express.

Fighting

Nick and I normally don't find too much. I have learned from my first marriage that I don't say anything until I am calmed down otherwise it comes out nasty and I say things I should not. Thursday night we were off the Sarah's game and it was parent night. The weather was nasty so we decided since they do the parent night thing at half time we would sit in the car and wait. Nick and I started bickering over a phone call. Yep a phone call. I thought we were over it but apparently he was not gonna drop it. So he says to me 2 minutes before half time starts that I have a choice he can drive me home to get my car which there was not enough time or I could have Dom come and pick me up cuz he was leaving. I was like WTF are you kidding me. His reply was no. I said whatever and got out with my umbrella and took off in the game. When the parent night thing was over I texted Dom to come get me and he was at church. I had to call Colleen to come get me. Talk about being pissed... that wasn't even the word for it. I was furious. All the way home I kept telling myself don't say anything until you have cooled down well that never happened. I walked in the door and just blew up at him. After screaming at him I told him to pack his shit and get out. I know the minute I said it I didn't mean it but I just could not help myself. I was so mad at him and embarrassed. So he packed a bag and I tried to talk to him as he was walking out but he was not having it. He left. I was devastated! I stayed up all night pissed at myself for saying that knowing that Ididn't mean it. I tried to text him to tell him to come home and he would not answer. I got online and looked at the account and he had already got a hotel room. I still didn't sleep all night and didn't even go to work on Friday. I tried to talk to him all day Friday and nothing. Friday night he came home but we didn't tallk he was still pissed at me. I was pissed at him too. I worked Saturday and after work I came home and we finally talked. We worked things out but why oh why do we say things we don't mean. I just try so hard to not do that. It sucks! I felt horrible. I still felt horrible on Sunday that we had to go thru that. Oh well you live and learn.

So that was my weekend. I sure hope everyone else had a better weekend.

Weekend

It was a busy yet fun weekend. I can't post any pictures yet because we changed internet companies and I won't get my new one til tomorrow night. Sarah looked soooo beautiful and Marco looked like such a dude. They had a blast. They took a limo bus with 25 kids in it. We did the same thing this time as we did for Snowcoming. We did a pot luck dinner at one of the kids houses. Marco voluteered me to make pasta so I was gonna buy Ragu which I never do but he said nooooo mom you homemade sauce. We got home Friday night at like 10:00 and my plan was to wake up early Saturday morning to make the sauce. The problem was I had to go to the store to get the stuff. I was laying in bed Saturday morning at like 8:00 and I smelled the sauce cooking. I got up and Nick had already went to the store and made the sauce. He also made me a huge breakfast. I was soooo happy!!

The road rally went well Sunday. Our group of girls is so different. We have like 3 that are really shy and 2 that are not. They shy ones are starting to open up tho it is kinda cute to see them all interact together LOL.

I also have a cold from Marco he shares his germs LOL. I guess the weather change doesn't help either. It was freggen cold here all weekend.

Its Monday and I don't have anything else to say so have a good day!

Beautiful

It is a beautiful sunny Fall day here. The air is nice and crisp. I had to turn the heat on last night it got down to 38. Frost on my windshield this morning. Whether I want Fall to come or not it is and I am embracing it with a smile. Its Winter I hate. I don't feel so crabby today :)

The youth group meeting went well last night. I had fun with the girls and they actually think Donna and I are cool because we text LOL. They were all so cute!

This is my schedule for the rest of the week.

Tonight: Women's Bible study
Tomorrow: Homecoming parade and game
Saturday: Homecoming dance
Sunday: Church and road rall at night

whewww I am tired just reading that LOL

I am actually excited about all of it. I love being busy. I got up this morning made Nick's lunch, started dinner in the crock pot and will go home shortly eat and head off with Donna.

I hope everyone has a great day!!!!

Period

So this morning I got up feeling cranky... to say the least! I got to work and yep I started. I have worked alone all day today and I am ready to tell the customers to go somewhere else LOL. I just want to go home. I am excited about tonight tho. That is actually what is getting me thru today :)

Fall

I can't believe how Fall is just here. I seems that Summer went by way too fast. I have to say tho I am getting excited for Halloween. As I have said Marco is a Halloween freak. This is the first year he has not asked to decorate in September. Tonight I think we are going to get our inside stuff out. I like decorations for any holiday. The weather here is surely Fall like. It is like 55 cloudy and raining. I really want to go home and put some sweats on and watch Lifetime movies all day.

We really didn't have too much going on this past weekend. We did however, get DirecTV and dumped Comcast. Friday night Nick and I were amazed at how many stations we have now. It is alot harder to get used to but we are working on it. I think Friday night we were sleeping by 10:00 which felt great. I worked Saturday, went shopping with Sarah for her homecoming dress and then home to make dinner. We ate watched a movie and again was sleeping by like 10:30. Sunday we got up and went to church. I got to meet 2 of my girls in my small group (youth group). They are so tiny and cute. Donna and I are wayyy excited. Our first meeting is Wednesday. I am looking forward to teaching them and from learning from them as well.

I am a very spiritual person. I used to be Catholic but now attend a Christian church. I love my church. I love the people I have met there. I am thankful for the opportunity to lead a small group. I feel that I learn more from this church than I did the Catholic church. I find I strive to be a better person more. I pray daily and am building my relationship with God. I always had one but it is alot stronger now. I just feel God working inside me and I love the peace that comes from it. I have raised my kids Catholic and they have all made their Sacraments. Dom is very involved in the Catholic church. I am trying now to get them to have a relationship with God. I am starting a Bible Study with my GF Thursday and I gotta say I am a little nervous about that. Lets face it I swear and I always feel guilty about that. None of us are perfect but for whatever reason I feel when you go to a Bible Study people expect you to be perfect and I know that is not true.

We have a busy week this week, Monday my friend is coming over for dinner, Tuesday nothing actually, Wednesday is my first small group meeting, Thursday is Bible study for me, Friday the Homecoming game, Saturday Homecoming and Sunday Church and scavenger hunt at night with the youth group. LOL It will be fun tho!!!!! Somewhere in there is a period coming too LMAO!!!! It could make for an interesting mix.

Happy Monday to everyone!!!!!

Walking

I have not walked in like a month and half pretty much since the elbow thing started and then my back. I have been taken it easy on my back. I am not sure if I told the story that I fell at work. I was so disgusted with it I really didn't want to talk about it. Anyway, I went walking last night like I normally do and it felt soooo damn good. I was hyper when I got back home and when I woke up this morning I started talking 500 miles a minute and still am. I guess I didn't realize how much walking at night makes a difference in my life. I can't wait to get home tonight to walk :)

We have Sarah's football game tonight wooo hooo!!!!

Have a great night everyone!!!!

picture again

I am not sure what is going on with the pictures on here but the last one was small and this one I tried to make bigger and it looks like crap.

My hubby

I love my husband dearly but lately I have not had a sex drive LOL I just don't know what is going on with that I just don't have it in me. He is very patient about this too. I give him credit. He is more understanding then most men would be. However, I feel bad about it and I keep saying yep tonight hunny then I end up falling asleep. I told him yesterday yep tonight for sure and I was sleeping by like 9:30. Oh well, I will get thru it it certainly is not the first time this has happened. This picture is us at a party we went to over the weekend.

daughters

My daugther was a mess this weekend fighting with all her friends. Her friends hated her BF and I ended up not liking him either. I told her a few weeks ago that she could not see him anymore because he was just way too controlling over her and I hated it. I seen my daughter change and it was driving me crazy. That made her pretty much hate me for the last few weeks. It has not been easy. Even tho I told her I am not here for a popularity contest. Anyway, she was still talking to him at school and texting him. Marco told me when I got home Friday that he drove her home from school. I was pissed... she knows she is not supposed to drive with him at all EVER! So instead of arguing with her AGAIN I decided that I would punish her another way. I made her clean all the bathrooms 3 of them to be exact LOL. I was enjoying it but was also gonna let her know I know what she did. She was so pissed at me she mumbled around the house with a huge attitude. Later that night we were talking and I was twirling her hair like I always do and I knotted it up in my hand and said I know that he drove you home today... the look on her face was priceless. See I normally yell but I am trying to change that. I told her if it happens again she will lose all her privileges to anything enjoyable. Saturday as soon as she wakes up she starts crying because of her friends. By the afternoon I was so sick of hearing it but she continued anyway. I went to bed and got up to go to the bathroom at like midnight and she came in the bathroom crying again. I kept telling her you and your friends will make up just go to sleep. I was just very tired of listening to her cry. I got up Sunday for church and she was not up I didn't wake her. I got a text from her in church that she was hanging with those same friends she was crying over ALL WEEKEND. I wanted to say I told you so but I didn't. Nick and I went to lunch and I got a text from Marco that floored me. It was a text telling me he was stressed out from a text he got from Sarah's X BF. I told him to forward it to me. When I got it my jaw hit the ground. He told Marco he touched Sarah and I won't go into details at all. I really didn't know how to react to it. I know she is 16 but I really didn't think that about her. I mean I didn't have sex til I was 19 almost 20. I wanted nothing to do with any of it at 16. It wasn't even that bad but still that is my little girl. I almost started crying and I wonder where she gets her dramatics from LOL. When I got home I showed her the text and she nodded her head yes. I told her that I was disappointed in her and that why would she want to talk to someone that talks shit about her like that. She said Marco already told me that you knew and I am not talking to him ever again. I then forwarded the text to the little shit and said that is the way you talk about my daughter. I also said if he does anything like this again I was gonna show his parents. His response to me was go ahead they know what I do and don't care. WTF???????? A part of me wants to lock my daughter up until she is 18 but I know she needs to learn the life lessons that we all did. I just don't know. I am trying my best to take everything with a grain of salt but it is hard!

So that is how my weekend ended.

Friday

I am soooooooo thankful it is Friday. I need to just relax and chill this weekend. We have pretty much nothing planned which is odd for us but I need it. These kids run me ragged.

I hope everyone has a good weekend :)

Strep Throat

Nick was not feeling good over the weekend and just pretty much slept. I felt guilty leaving him Saturday night to go out and when I came home he slept the whole time. Monday he went to the drs and was told he had strep throat. I catch that pretty easy because I still have my tonsils. I was not feeling the greatest over the weekend either but it is so hard to tell with me because I have allergies. This morning I was not feeling so good myself and I made a drs appt. I got there and of course I had to have my one ear cleaned because it had wax in it. Then he said my throat looked red and my nose looked red. He also said my eyes looked very irritated from allergies. He thought it was a mix of both allergies and a sinus infection. Gave me a script for anitbiotics. I am not so sure I need them. Seriously I don't understand that whole thing if ya need them or not. It is just weird. Does anyone have any input?

Reunion

The reunion was a blast!!!! I had so much fun. It is so fun connecting with people you have not seen in 25 years. I don't have time for a long post so I will just post a few pictures from the evening. I have more that I will share later.

Before I share the first picture I will explain it LOL. At this bar restaurant we were at there is an Indian in the women's bathroom and he has a little leather thing on and if you lift it up to look at his ya know private parts there is a light and siren that goes off in the bar so everyone knows your looking at it LOL. So we just had to set the siren off in a big way. That is my other BFF.

High school

Tomorrow is our semi-formal 25th reunion at a really cool sports bar! I am so excited... I can't wait. I am going with my 2 high school friends. Facebook has hooked me up with alot of people from high school. One girl said she had a ton of pictures of us when we were younger and she was so excited to share them with me. It is going to be a good time. I went to this store here called Buckle. I am not sure if you have one by you but OMG the jeans this store has. They aren't cheap but they have 66 different fits for women. I went in and they see what you like and then take you to the fitting room and then they bring you everything. You never have to move. It was nice and I must of tried on 30 pairs of jeans. I have a hard time with jeans because I got a booty LOL. In order to get them to fit the booty they are usually huge in the legs. Not this pair they fit perfect!!!! I bought them, a belt and 2 shirts. Of course, one outfit is the one I am wearing tomorrow night. Ya know ya gotta look good for people you have not seen in 25 years. The crazyness us girls go thru. Today I am getting my hair did. I am wayyyyyy excited. Nick on the other hand is a little jealous and I don't know why. I asked him if he wanted to see my jeans on and he said no LOL. Men are so silly but I love him! We are thinking about taking a cab tomorrow night so we all can drink. I mean I am sure it won't look so cool but hey it is what it is. Better to be safe than sorry.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Mice

My husband is deathly afraid of mice. I still didn't know the extent of it until yesterday I had some errands to run after work and I was not home when he got home. He called my cell and this was the conversation:

Me: Hello

Him: Where r u?

Me: I had some errands to run I will be home in about a half hour

Him: Ok

Me: what is wrong?

Him: I am gonna wait for you in the garage

Me: R u kidding me?

Him: No I am still freaked out over the whole mouse thing

Me: Trying to hold my laughter in saying ok hunny I will be home shortly

I thought he was joking but nope as I pulled down the street there he was waiting in the garage for me with the TV on.

Seriously that is too funny. I told him if my dad was still here he would lose some major man points. He would be soooo disappointed LOL.

Have a great day all!

school starts and mouse traps

School started today for my twins. I am glad about that that means that maybe they will go to bed at a decent time instead of staying up all damn night. Dom started last week :( I am still getting used to that! He is excited and I am excited for him these are the best years of his life. He is working now so things are coming together with him. It is just me that needs to still do some adjusting LOL. I feel bad for the twins tho because their bus comes at 6:30 a.m. they are so not used to getting up that early. They will have to get used to it :)

This past weekend we went to Colleen's camper and had a great time! The weather was perfect. It was nice to relax I have had alot going on lately with Sarah. It felt great! I guess people were right about teenage daughters being a handful I used to think nope not mine but yep she is. I gotta say I am not happy about it. It seems when boys come in their life they loose their minds LOL. We will get thru it... I am hoping. This is all new territory for me and ya never know if your doing the right thing or not. We will see :)

Last night Nick and I were sitting watching TV and I seen something move out of the corner of my eye. I said I think we have a mouse in the house. This is not uncommon in our area because we have a creek and field 2 doors down from our house. Nick said no I didn't see anything. We continuued to watch TV and I see it again... I said there is a mouse in this house. We had pasta for dinner so I got up and put a bowl on the counter and watched sure enough he came right up to the bowl. I got up and yelled OMG THERE IS A MOUSE IN HERE. Nick freaked out I had no idea he was so afraid of mice LOL. I watched the mouse go behind the stove. We got up and went in the kitchen Nick started banging on the stove and he had a broom in his hand. The mouse came out and Nick was swinging the broom on him. I almost peed my pants it was freaking hiliarious!!!! I told him you have to hit them hard they don't die easy LOL. I sent him to the store to get a mouse trap because I told him that is the only way your gonna get it. He left and came back $35.00 later. He bought everything you could think of for mice. These little things you plug in the wall that make some sort of noise to keep the mice away. I said hunny all you needed was a mouse trap. I geared up the mouse traps he bought and put them in the kitchen. I put one in the one cabinet that I thought he was in and went and watched tv I ended up falling asleep. NICK NEVER SLEPT! He woke me up at 2:00 a.m. saying he thinks we caught it. I said so go see... that is when I realized how afraid he is of mice. He said can you go check??? I got up and sure enough there he was so I said to Nick well grab him he is dead. He wouldn't... so here I was half asleep trying to get my thoughts together to get this mouse. Nick went in the garage to get me a glove LOL. I put the glove on and Nick was standing behind me with the dust pan. I grabbed the mouse trap and went to put in the dust pan. Nick was not having it. I had to go outside at 2:00 in the morning and walk out to the street where the big garbage can was to put the mouse in there. On the way back to the house I was cracking up!!!!! I laughed for like an hour. Nick called me his hero LOL. It was hiliarious to see his face expressions. He seriously was terrified. I think it is funny too that he never slept the whole time before the mouse trap went off. I have a new name now it is mouse buster LOL.

I hope everyone has a great day!!!

Friday

It is Friday and I am glad but I do have work tomorrow. It is the first Saturday I have worked in like 3 weeks so I can't bitch but that doesn't mean I have to like it. I am feeling full of hormones right now. Just kinda blah. I hate feeling this way. I had a few tough weeks with some pain issues with my arm and then my back so I am just trying to regroup. The matress was great!!!! I loved it and Nick did too. I have to go tonight and buy a gift for the shower tomorrow. I am excited about that. I hope the weather is good because she is having it outside at her house. The weather the last few days has been rainy and cool. I woke up this morning and it was dark :( I hate this time of year because I know Fall is coming and I actually like Fall but I hate Winter! Nick and I are thinking about taking the kids to Florida for Christmas. We have never done that and I think it would be nice! We are still looking at prices. I am excited to start my small group thru church. I am excited about football too. Just hate Winter! I hope we don't get another one like last year. We had wayyyy too much snow and it was too cold. The good thing is it seems to warm up earlier in the year like in February. I always try to look at it a different way in a much more postive aspect lol.

I hope everyone enjoys their weekend.

Is it bed time yet?????

For the last month or so I have been having some back issues which I have had a few other times. It is weird tho I would wake up achy and then thru the day it would get better to only get worse again the next morning. Nick has also been having some back issues. I got to thinking about it and thought ya know my matress is 14 years old and maybe we need a new one. There are major indentions in it too. I went and looked last Friday and laid on one in the showroom and OMG I could not believe how good it felt on back. I took Nick back on Tuesday to see what one he liked and he liked it too. We had it delivered today and I cannot wait to go to bed tonight! I guess I didn't realize how expensive matresses are... I mean you can go all the way up to like $4,000.00 for a King. I like having a King but the price sure does stink. It is 2:30 now and I want to go to bed but I am at work. I am definitely gonna lay in it when I get home and watch the news or a movie or something. I need to try it out. Can you tell I am excited?

Sarah had her first game yesterday I went and they cheered good! I just can't believe Summer is pretty much over :(

I need to get back to work now. Have a great day!

Football

Tomorrow kicks off our football season at the high school. It is Sarah's first game to cheer at for JV. I love football season... I hate that it is Fall and Winter is right behind it but I love the football season. Sarah's BF and I have plans for her first game. She hates when I sit up close she always makes me move. She will wave her hands from the field kinda like motioning me to move up. We are gonna make signs to hold up and sit right in front LOL. I told him we need to get a horn too. Her BF is great I love him! He fits right into our family. At first he seemed so shy but he is not shy at all. Colleen and I had a little argument about him yesterday. As I was talking to her on the phone Bart (Sarah's BF) texted me and wanted to know what was for dinner? I told Colleen that and she just went off on this rant about how it is weird that he texts me. I told her that if he was gonna be Sarah's BF I want to really know who he is and I want him to feel comfortable around me. I don't see anything wrong with it. He has pretty much been at our house every night which I told them to enjoy that now cuz after school starts that is not happening. First of all because she has cheer after school everyday from 5:30 to 8:30 and then homework. It does not bother me at all that he comes over. Sometimes Colleen just says whatever is on her mind whether it is hurtful or not. I have been getting annoyed with her lately. She just seems so angry all the time and ready to jump down your throat. I guess when we were younger it was funny but it is not so funny anymore. It makes it hard to be around her sometimes.

Dom got some of his books for college and OMG one book was $200.00. I told him I used to love to get my books that it excited me so much. He thought that was weird. One of his book was 2500 pages long. He ended up taking 16 credits which I told him I thought was too much for your first semester but ya know you can't tell them anything cuz they know it all. He will learn fast when all he is doing is homework.

Marco's first home game is next week. I can't wait to see him march on the field with the big ole bass drum. He looks so cute with it and I just love the drumline! The twins have Cougar days tomorrow where you have to pay for everything up front, pictures, yearbook etc. It is just coming right along LOL I don't want Summer to end but I know I have no choice.

I do plan on doing a post from home so I can put some pictures on here of the Woodward Cruise and of Louie the goat LOL

I hope everyone has a good day!

Blogging

I have had alot to blog about lately but really didn't feel like blogging. Lots of things going on around here. The Woodward cruise was great... I didn't have a drink all day. I mostly drank water because it was so hot out. A few weeks ago we went to another cruise and I drank beer in the heat and pretty much felt like shit at 7:00 in the evening. So this time I decided not to do that. I had a great time and got home at like 8:30 at night and felt great! This week has been the Armada Fair which we went to Wednesday night and we are going to go tomorrow night too. I am exhausted! Summer is tiring. Every night when I get home I say I am going to bed early tonight and it never happens. Last night I fell asleep at like midnight. It was supposed to rain all day yesterday and I was glad for that so when I got home I would not feel guilty about laying around. I got home and it was beautiful out so the cycle started all over again. That is pretty much the only thing I hate about Summer the lack of rest.

Sarah's first game is Wednesday her boyfriend and I have plans to keep yelling her name and making huge signs LOL. They start school September 3rd. It is crazy. Dom starts college that day too. I still can't believe he is going to college.

I got a few good posts to do I am at work and hopefully will do them when I get home tonight if I don't fall asleep first.

Have a good weekend!

Woodward

This Monday kicked off the week of the Woodward Cruise. Woodward is street that runs thru several cities and back in the 50's they used to cruise it every weekend. People come from different States to go to this cruise. It is alot of fun!!!! They cruise every night until Saturday which is the official cruise. Try to picture this tho it is a stretch of about 12 miles just packed with classic cars, little stands, bars with all the glass out and people sitting in there watching, TV stations, radio stations and sometimes huge big screens in the median. It is amazing. I look forward to this every year. I am sure I talked about it last year but again I am too lazy to look back at my blog. We went last night and I just get so excited when I hear the sounds of the hot rods. We are going tonight too I just can't wait.

Next week kicks off my favorite fair to go to here. The last few weeks of summer are going by too fast. I can't believe the kids start school in a few weeks. It just seems as tho summer went by way to fast. This next week is supposed to be really nice weather tho.

OK sit down to read this because your not going to believe it. DOM GOT A JOB!!!!! Yes he finally got a job at the 711 right by our house. He started Tuesday and of course I had to go in to see him then he worked today and yes I went in again at lunch to get a water. I said Hi hunny and his reply to me was I hate my job. LOL Welcome to the wonderful world of being an adult LOL. I am so proud of him tho. He starts college in a few weeks. I am excited but sad cuz my baby is an adult. I am still trying to process it. I know by now you would think I got it but I just don't yet LOL.

I hope everyone has a good week well almost weekend!!!

tennis elbow

So after a few weeks of bitching and being in pain I finally could not take it anymore! I went to the drs to find out I have tennis elbow. WTH how do you get that when I don't even play tennis lol. It is what it is and it hurts. I was crying last night it was just relentless. I almost went to ER but decided against it because I didn't want to sit there forever. He also gave me a steriod pack which I won't take because I am not a huge fan of steroids. He said if it does not get better in a few weeks that I need to come back and get a steriod shot. I am hoping it goes away. I am putting ice on it and that seems to help. My dr is also having issues right now with the same thing and he said he is on week 6. I was like oh hell no I sure hope this don't last that long!

Tomorrow we leave bright and early to go get Marco from band camp and it is also the twins birthday tomorrow. I still can't believe they are going to be 16. Marco is so home sick right now and I feel so bad for him. I am missing him huge too! Our house is quiet.

I am falling asleep at the laptop here so I am gonna go rest and hopefully this elbow thing will feel better. It actually already is the band thing seems to help.

Have a good day!

relief

I am finally getting some needed relief from this pinched nerve. It feels great!!!!

Remember I told you before about my step-daughter R well, she has some issues a few months ago that landed her in jail. She stayed the whole weekend and got out on Sunday. Her mom was pissed because she had felt she hit rock bottom. I agreed that she did. I am not sure if I posted about the whole situation or not and I am too lazy to go back and look. Anyway, she ended up going to counseling and a pshyciartrist (spelling). The dr told her she has maniac states and borderline bi-polar. He gave her a bunch of different meds to take and she has been doing fantastic. She got a new job that she worked at for almost 2 weeks. I was so proud of her until I got the call Friday from her mom saying she was at the ER for pain in her side. They said she had fibroids and sent her home. I talked to her Saturday and she seemed a little bit better. Saturday she asked her mom to take her back to the hospital and her mom said no. She drove herself there and has been there ever since. She went to a different hospital than what she was at on Friday. They really can't find anything wrong with her they have done MRI's CAT SCANS and everything. They told her yesterday it was probably Irritable Bowel. She keeps complaining to them and saying she is pain. Her mom is at her witts end with this shit and I totally understand. I don't understand how there could be something wrong every few months that takes someone 6 months to get over. She is 32 and she has been living at home and moving out briefly for awhile now. Her mom has pretty much been paying her bills. I would be sick of it too. Her mom told me today that R wants exploratory surgery to find out what is going on. I just don't understand that. I would want to be out of there so fast. Her mom also told me today that she is a total head job and that was about her own daughter. I understand I really do. I mean at one point you think your kids are on their own and then they are back home and expecting you to pay all their bills. Frustrating I guess is the only way I can explain it. I am not going to see her because I start to feel bad for her and want to baby her. That is not what she needs. She needs some coping skills or something like that.

Marco has been texting me like crazy from band camp. This morning he told me he was homesick and I said no your mama sick LOL. He said yep. I thought by now he would outgrow the mama's boy thing but he hasn't. I mean it is not to the extreme but he is a mama's boy.

Last night Franco came over we played some spoons. I don't care how old you get that game is always fun! I hate to lose too I am not sure if I ever mentioned that LOL. I am a poor sport. It is pretty hot and humid out today and I am loving it! I love it hot and humid. Tomorrow it is supposed to be even hotter YES! I hope everyone enjoys their day!

busy weekend

We had such a busy weekend... fun but busy. Saturday after work we went to 2 parties once was at my cousin's house they call it the summer bash. This year they got a luge. I don't know if you have ever seen one but it is pretty cool. They pour shots down it and it goes thru the ice and you drink it at the end. My uncles were both asking what is that. I kept saying you will see it when it is done. When they got done with it my one uncle wanted to do it so he did. He is like 64 and I was shocked that he did it not once but 3 times. We all were cracking up at him. It was a fun party but we had to leave at like 7:00 to go to our other party which was on the other side of town. That was a huge party like 150 people. We only knew the people that were having the party so we didn't stay long and went back to my cousin's house. Sunday was the cruise day. We left the house at like 10:00 and didn't get home til like 8:00. It was FANTASTIC! I had such a great time. We had 3 little tents set up and alot of friends there. I got a little too buzzed. I guess when your drinking and out in the sun all day you loose track of how many drinks you have had. Nick was packing up last night to go home and he said how many beers did you and Sharyl have. I said I don't know how many empty cans are there. He said 18 and I said then I guess we drank 18 beers. Yeah 18 beers between 2 girls is alot. I got home and felt like total complete shit. I took 2 Tylenol and went to bed. I still didn't feel quite right this morning but this afternoon it is getting better. I am not 20 anymore but I sure feel like it LOL. I will leave you with a picture of us girls at the cruise yesterday. I am the one in the white Tshirt and I have no idea what I am doing LOL. Have a great week!

Saturday

It is Saturday and I am working :( I hate working Saturdays because I hate getting up when the kids are at their dad's house. That means Nick and I have the morning to ourselves and I have to leave. It sucks! I only work like 1 Saturday a month but it still sucks. Besides the fact that my favorite Mall is having a sidewalk sale this weekend that I want to go to. I was gonna go last night but I was just too tired. Victoria's Secret has their hoodies and sweat pants for half off right now. I love their hoodies. If you have never tried one you need to they are the softest and warmest ones I have ever tried. Normally they are $49.50 and this weekend they are $25.00. The mall is in the same parking lot as my work so I will hop over there after work and grab some for Sarah and I. The twins birthday is Friday... I can't believe they are going to be 16 OMG 16 it is amazing to me. Time sure flys by. That will be part of Sarah's b-day gift. I don't think that I mentioned last weekend her and I went to Victoria's Secret on a mission. She wanted to try thong underware. I told her when she turned 16 she could try one. Well, the time is here so I took her there and tried to talk her into getting the ones that have lace because I find those to be the most comfortable. She ended up with just the regular ones. I was sad about this but I can't keep her from growing up. Most of her friends have been wearing thongs since like 13. Now that she has tried them she really isn't a big fan. It takes time to get used to them. While we were there I wanted a bra so badly. They are like 50.00! When I was married before I only wore Victoria's Secret everything. The bras are expensive but they last forever. So I decided to get fitted for one. See I have this thing going on with my boobs. One is fairly larger than the other like at least a 1/2 of cup size. They fitted me and said I was a 38C. I said nahh that will never work for me because of my one small boob LOL. I tried it on and it worked perfectly so I bought it. I was loving the fact that I had a Victoria's Secret bra again LOL. I am gonna get Sarah fitted for one when I get some extra money. I swear she will probably be like a 34D. I think it is important to have that support tho especially when your larger chested. It helps your back alot!

After I go to the mall we have 2 parties to go to. I am excited about both of them but the only thing is they are each on the opposite ends of town. See here in the Detroit area we have the East side and the West side. I am from the East side and I love the East side. The West side is nice as well but the people are very different. More snobby if you will. The East side people are much more down to earth LOL. I am sure the West siders will tell you the same thing about us. When I worked at a company years ago we had a lot of people transfer in from other States. They always said I don't get the East side West side thing. I used to tell them to go to the East side then the West side and you tell me the difference. They always would come back and say OMG it is a huge difference. I used to say see I told ya! So we will travel to one party and then get in the car and go about 40 miles to the other side of town being the West and go to another party which means we cannot drink because one of us has to drive and it is not fair for one to drink and not the other. It will still be fun.

Tomorrow we have church and another cruise day. I love cruise days they are so fun! I hope everyone enjoys their weekend. :)

Miserable

I have just been a miserable bitch the last few days. This pinched nerve is getting my my nerves literally. I went to the chiropractor Monday and Tuesday with not alot of relief. I love my chiropractor and have been going to him for 10 years. When he was on vacation a few months ago I went to see the guy that takes care of is patients when he is gone. I loved him!!! I had this similiar pain and he took it away almost instantly. I still returned my old chiro guy but after Tuesday I was frustrated. The only way I can describe this pain is like a tooth ache only in your neck, shoulder and down your arm. So yesterday I decided to give him a try again. I went right after work and I didn't trash talk my other guy I just said that the last time I came to him it felt alot better. He got me in a room and he takes this little meter thing and runs in down your spine to see where it is inflamed. He said oh it is up here in your neck and down here in your hip. He adjusted me and on my way I went. It was still sore but feeling a little bit better already. He also showed me stretches to do and they work. Today it is probably the best it has been which makes me happy. It is still sore but better than it has been. He thinks and I think it is from sitting here at the computer at work. I changed my chair around today and that has helped. The other thing that bugs me is I love to sleep on my side and I have not been able to do that. I have had to sleep on my back. I FREGGEN HATE THAT! I have not slept real good in a few nights. I have something hiliarous to tell you tho and I hope I can make it come across as funny as it really was. Last night at like 4 in the morning Nick all of a sudden jumped up and starting yelling and flailing around the bed. Saying wooo hoo whoo hoo and then he sat up on the side of the bed. I was hunny what was that all about. He said I had a dream I was looking up at the ceiling and people were coming out at me. I started cracking up. First of all people who are scared usually just yell. This was like he was seeing some nice boobs or something. OMG I laughed on and off for an hour. I just cracked up typing that. Too funny!!! Just typing this is killing my shoulder.

That is all that has been going on over here. I hope everyone has a good day!

The nerve!!!

Over the last few years or so I sometimes get this pain in my shoulder area that seems to come from my neck. It started like last week and last night was killing me to the point I was crabby with everyone! I went to the chiropractor yesterday and today and it seems to be a little bit better but it still hurts :( it is bearable tho! I think it is the way I sit at work because it hurts more when I am sitting. I am glad it is bearable tho and it by tonight it is better :)

Our weekend was pretty laid back. Friday night we went to a car show at my favorite country bar. They have the best outdoor tiki bar ever! We had fun... Sarah's BF came with us... yay! I am not sure about him anymore. He is way too quiet for our family and for her. After the car show we came back home and he came with us. Nick and I were sitting on the couch, Sarah on the love seat and the BF was in the chair. They were both being a little quiet and texting. Nick drove him home and the minute he got out of the car he started calling her saying he was pissed at her because she would not come sit on his lap on the chair. WTF I don't allow that to go on in my house. I hate when kids are hanging all over each other. Anyway, she was not too bothered about it at all which I was happy about. Saturday night we went to our friends for a bonfire and she wanted to know if he could come. I said no because she had been with him for like 3 days in a row. I went on Facebook before we left and her status was... I know there is nothing I can do to make it better??? I asked her what that was about and she said that he told her go to the bonfire and I will sit home with nothing to do. Again WTF???? I was not happy and told her he seems a little bit too controlling but she gave me that look like she was pissed at me so I quit talking. I just decided that I am gonna make it hard on her to see him and eventually maybe he will move on LOL. I just don't understand the control thing and I know she is only 15 and naive but I am trying to show her that it is not right. I know I have to let her learn on her own but damn that is the hardest thing.

Marco is just flat out grounded. He went to the outdoor mall with Colleen on Sunday. I knew my sister was coming to see my mom in her wedding dress and her husband in his tux yuckkk sorry I just threw up in my mouth a little bit LOL. Anyway, Nick and I ended up meeting them at Partridge for a little bit. We got home and I went on Facebook yesterday to see a picture of Marco and my sister in her weddind dress at the mall. I was PISSED!!! I called Colleen to see if she knew anything about it and she didn't. I talked to Marco and he said my sister called him and said where are you... he told her... she came up there and told him to come to parking lot. I asked him where he told Colleen he was going to fill out an application at the Crocs store. He came home didn't say a word to me but did tell Sarah and said don't say anything to mom. There is most of the reason I am pissed because he lied to several people here and he knows he not supposed to talk or see her. I know that sounds retarded but I truly do not want my kids exposed to her bullshit abuse. Like I said before I love her but I choose not to have her in my life as she chooses not to have me in her life. The same goes for my kids why expose Marco to adult business and bullshit when he is only 15. It pisses me off. I have the password for Marco's Facebook because I have been keeping an eye on him without him knowing. I sent her a message from his Facebook again asking her to leave the kids alone. The response I got was GET A CLUE GET A LIFE AND GO TO HELL! Yeah she never does anything wrong. One day she will see what she has done. Anyway so Marco is grounded for lying. I took his Facebook account and changed the password and email so he cannot get into it. I guess he will learn the hard way. I tried to explain to him last night that I am doing this because it is my job as a parent to protect him as much as I can. I said once he is a parent he will understand. I went to see my mom yesterday and all she talked about was my sister coming there in her wedding dress. I let her talk until I had enough and said mom can we change the subject. Then she said Don carried picked her up and carried her out of here too. I could not control my tongue after that I said ok so what he is an asshole! LOL I am still trying to learn to control my mouth and it looks like I failed in this situation. Seriously, I would like some feeback on this... nobody ever comments. So please tell me if I am being a complete ass. I am only doing what a mom does and that is protect.

As for Dom he is all registered and ready for school. He told me he is taking 18 credits. I said Dom that is a little much why not try 12 your first semester and then see how it goes. He said I can do it. I will let him learn on his own :) that is the only thing you can do in that situation. Live and learn we all did it now it is his turn.

I better get back to work :( I hope everyone has a great day!

Compliments

After work yesterday I went and got my nails done and I love that! I think pedicures are the best thing in the world. I love the massage they give you! The girl that does mine give me an extra long massage because she knows how much I love it. I tip her very well too LOL. As I was getting my manicure Nick came up there. I was SHOCKED! He knew I was going there but he never comes up there. I said Hunny... what ya doing? He said I was driving by and decided to stop instead of going home and sitting by myself. He has been acting a little strange since that whole thing happened with S. She she left her house Sunday night and went and stayed with the guy she grew up with. I guess she has had enough and can't deal with her T anymore. I can't say that I blame her at all. She has been calling me every day and has been having more fun in the last week than she probably has in like 10 years. She is going home today to check on things. I told her when she left to make sure she told T because the last thing she needs is him to file abdonment charges in their divorce. I don't fault her for what she is doing but she needs to get her affairs at home in order. So I think Nick is feeling a little insecure and he has no reason to feel that way. I love that man with all my heart! In fact, I told him last night it never seems to matter what we are doing just as long as we are together. We can be laying around at night watching TV and laughing our asses off. I love that I never had that in my first marriage.

So again, I started this post early in the morning at work and now it is 1:00 and I am trying to remember all the things I wanted to blog about LOL. Now I remember what I was going to blog about. I went and played Cootie Bingo with my mom last night. She was at a table with some young people like in their 30's. It is so sad and I am not sure what is wrong with them. The one looks like he was in a car accident and other maybe the other one may have MS or something. The young guy sitting next to my mom after I sat down said are you married? I said yes... he said your beautiful. I said thanks and he must of told me that like 5 times while I was there. The lady across from my mom said you have 3 kids and your just a skinny little thing LOL. I said can I come and kiss you. I am anything but skinny but it is still nice to hear. I have never been one of those really skinny girls. I am curvy LOL. I got a booty, hips and boobs. Nick told me the other night I needed to quit walking. I said why and he said cuz your booty is kinda out there LOL. He likes it and I told him I would rather have it out there than have it hanging down to my knees. Anyways compliements whether it be true or not always feel good.

I need to go now cuz I have so much work to do we have been slammed the last few days. I hope everyone has a good day!

Sleep

I think sleep is just great!!! I have this habit in the summer of staying up way too late. I get up at 6:00 a.m. and in the winter I go to sleep at about 10:00 or 10:30 at the latest. Who am I kidding I usually fall asleep on the couch at like 9ish LOL. The summer I stay up till about midnight or so which is way too late for me. Yesterday after work I went home started dinner and then went for my walk. I got home ate, washed my face and sat on the couch to watch some tv it was like 9ish. I woke up this morning in my bed not knowing how I got there at like 5:30 a.m. I was full of energy!!! Yayyyy!!! I got some much needed sleep! Sleep helps my mental state of mind. I feel revitalized today just in time for Cootie Bingo with my mom tonight. I think that sometimes our emotions react better when we are rested. Well at least for me they do. Nick learned real fast when we started dating that if I was tired I just needed to sleep and that tired and hungry were not a good combination at all. I guess I have always been that way. I get so bitchy! I envy people that are tired and just go with it for the mostpart. I however am not one of those people. It is what it is!

Sarah got home from cheer camp Monday night. My poor girl was exhausted, sunburnt and full of bug bites. She took a shower, ate and went to bed. Marco goes to band camp August 1st. I can't believe how fast summer is going by. I do get excited for football season tho. I love high school football games. However, I don't even want to think about summer being over.

I have to tell you we have not went on a vacation this year at all. We normally go up north at least 5 times in the summer but with money being so tight we have not gone anywhere. In fact, I am becoming such a miser when it comes to money let me tell you about Nick and I's trip to Wal Mart Sunday:

Me: Hunny I am not sure which paper towel to get

Nick: Get this one

Me: I think this one has more in it and it is cheaper

Nick: It is a game see this one says it has the equivalent of 12 rolls and it is only 8

Me: This one looks like the rolls are bigger

We seriously stood there for like 5 minutes debating on which paper towel to get. I have never been like that but now I am. I guess this little recession brings out the best in all of us!

Have a good day!!!

My last post

As I said at the bottom of that post it took me most of the day to complete it. I just read it and I do repeat myself and it seems a little jumbled LOL It is because there was so much time in between that I wanted to get it done and didn't remember what I said earlier. So sorry for that but I am sure you get the point.

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As I wrote yesterday, I was trying to wrap my mind around what my friend just told me. I was in a great mood tho bouncing around work. I left work and decided to go see my mom. I love my mom a ton but I will tell you she can bring me down in 2 seconds. I think most moms have that ability because they know the target spots. I walked in her room and she said hi babydoll. I said hi are you having a good day. She said yep. So I sat down to visit with her and she pointed out some flowers on her window sill. I said who gave you those? She said on of the nurse's aids. I said that is nice! Then she said yep everyone does nice things for me except you! I was so hurt... I didn't respond just stared at the TV because I was fighting back tears. She kept looking at me for a response and I just said Ok mom. Then she started crying because my sister is suppose to come this weekend and she wanted me to buy a disposable camera so she could take pictures. She also said she wanted a picture of me and my sister. I understand her feelings because it is her daughter. However, I am so tired of feeling less that my sister. It has been that way my whole life. Whether it was said or implied it is the way that I felt. When my sister comes this weekend she is supposed to wear her wedding dress and Don is supposed to have on a a tux. I doubt she will come but hey maybe this time she will. I hope she does for my mom's sake but her track record is against her. When my sister was married before she had the perfect husband, perfect house and perfect kids. That is the way it appeared to everyone I know differently now. I was always the one who had the uncontrollable kids or dirty kids. Lets face it I had 2 boys and a girl boys are always dirty when they are young for shits sake they are boys. At the time I didn't argue about it because they would always tell me there is no difference in raising boys and girls. I know there is but why argue over it. The other thing my sister always teased me about growing up was the fact that I was always bigger than her. She is still tiny like a size 1. When I was younger I was soooo chubby. I stayed chubby until I was about 14. She would always make fun of me and the size of my underware. I am 43 now and that shit stays with you for the rest of your life. I have overcome it for the most part but still am a little self conscieous (spelling?). So my sister will drive in on her white horse and be the superstar to my mom. I, however, am shit because I do nothing for her! I know in my mind that is not true but that is the way my mom makes me feel. I have probably said this in an earlier post but I will say it again. My sister once told me that she considered her family like the Waltons and my family was like the Griswolds. Hurtful, but again I got used to it. I try not to let these feelings come out very often but it is so hard when my mom says shit like to me. I only stayed about 20 minutes after she said that because I was literally fighting back my tears. In fact, I had to put on my sunglasses to hide them. I walked out of her room and cried the whole way home. I just feel like I always try to be the best person and I can be to everyone around me not just my mom and when something like that is said it cuts me to the core. I prayed when I got home for some understanding of this and why she feels the need to do this. My mom kept calling my cell phone and I would not answer she also called Nick's cell phone and he answered it and told her I went to the store. He asked her if everything was ok and she said yep just have her call me. I listened to my messages and they were all saying sorry that she would never want to hurt my feelings. I am sick of getting my feelings hurt! I try not to hurt anyone's feelings it happens sometimes but definitely not if I can help it. I know everyone has their baggage from childhood but sometimes those feelings are so raw you just have to cry to get it out. When I got home yesterday Marco said mom are you ok. I said yes I am fine. I went in my bathroom and tried to get myself together, changed and went for a walk. Walking does help me because as I am walking I process my thoughts. I usually feel better when I get home. Nick understands me the most. So I usually talk it thru with him as well. Sometimes I feel like I expect too much from people and that I over-react and he assures me that I don't.

I started this post at like 8:30 this morning and it is now 2:00 in the afternoon. Work has been a little bit busy today. I just had to get out what was on my mind. Afterall, isn't that what this blog is for. I guess life can always be roses. I hope everyone has a good day!

Is this a movie --- can't be real

This is gonna be a long one so grab a cup of coffee before you start. I go thru life thinking that most everyone has the same morals or beliefs that I do. I know this is not true but for the most part everyone that I have in my life does. I choose it that way. What I am about to say is not even gonna sound real to you and me well I am still trying to process this and I didn't even sleep last night because of it.

I have quite a few friends that I have had since Elementary school and High school. My feeling on that is it is hard to find good friends so when you do you need to hang on to them. I have this one friend I will call him T and we have been friends since Kindergarten. In High school he started dating my good friend I will call her S. I told her at the time not to because he was known as a womanizer. They have been together since. They have had a pretty rocky marriage for the whole marriage but they have stayed together. They have 2 boys that are right around the ages my of kids. Me and S were very close when I stayed home and my kids were little. We would go to one anothers house and just hang out with the kids all day. The more time went on I noticed her kids were kinda mean to mine which I was not very fond of and I noticed she was very obsessed with T. She would not do anything on her own. I would call her to go out with me to Wal Mart and she would not go. T traveled alot and was gone most of the time. She would just sit home and do nothing. I still remained friends with her but we just mostly talked on the phone. I would always tell her she needed to do something for herself and quit being so obsessed with T. She used to always tell me she would die without him. I would always assure her that she would not and she needed to get more independant. This drove me crazy!!! When I got divorced she was always there for me to talk to. She really is a wonderful person just obsessed with her husband. He always had this sick control over her.

Her mom called one night and told me that S was drinking and out of control. I said why? Her mom wanted me to come over her house and talk to S. So I went over there to find S shaking and just full of anxiety. I kept asking her what was wrong? She would say I don't know I just feel anxious. She was going to her dr and he had her on some anxiety medicine and it still was not helping. I tried to talk to her and sooth her in some way it just did not work. A few days after that T called me and told me she had a drinking problem. I was in shock because she really was never a drinker. I kept asking him what is going on with her. He would say I don't know but I am taking her to rehab. After I hung up with T, S called me back to tell me in her drunk voice saying that she was not going to rehab. I told her then if she had a problem she needed to go and that I would come and go with her. She ended up going a few days later T and her mom took her. I was heartbroken for her and wondering what in the heck happened to make her drink the way she had been drinking. T called me every night she was in rehab crying to me on the phone telling me that he hoped it worked and he was not sure what the problem was but that they would find out thru the therapy at rehab. She did her rehab and was alcohol free for 2 years. I would see her occasionally at the stores. Sarah and I ran into her at Wal Mart a year ago and we ended up going back to her house to visit. She told me then that her marriage was not good and they pretty much did their own thing. T still travels alot like he is gone for almost 7 or 8 months a year. I was sad when she said that but could understand because T can be an ass. S has pretty much raised her boys by herself. I have always felt bad for her. So Saturday was her son's grad party. Nick and I got their late because I worked then went home and took a nap because I was exhausted from Kid Rock. There were very few people there when we got there S was sitting at the patio table with 2 guys. I didn't know either of them. She introduced us and one was her neighbor and the other her friend from grade school. He had got in contact with her thru Facebook. T was pissed that he was at the party. I didn't really see anything wrong with it. T stayed in the house with his friend R (that is what I will call him) now keep track of that initial because he comes up later in the story. After everyone else left we stayed and chatted in the garage for a few hours. S and I went in the house and talked. She was showing me all the medicine she is on and I said what is it for. She has high blood pressure and some other things going on. She said her dr thinks the high blood pressure is from stress. She is only about 120 pounds and small. She started talking to me again about her marriage and how she is just not happy. She also confided in me that the friend that was their from grade school she thought she liked. I told her then that I don't promote things like that but life is too short to live the way your living. I left it at that. It is hard for me because I am friends with both of them.

After we left Nick and I talked about it in the car and he said it is clear they really don't have a marriage because T was telling him pretty much the same thing. I said that is so sad. T makes good money and they are not hurting for anything but that just goes to show you money cannot buy you happiness.

Nick and I got up Sunday morning and went to church and Wal Mart when we got home I was still exhausted so I went in the bedroom and laid on the bed watching some movies. We have the caller ID that comes up on our TV. I never usually answer our house phone but it rang and I seen S's name come up. I answered it and said hey. She said what ya doing. I told her I was just relaxing and she told me she was at the friends house. I said what are you doing??? She said I just came over here to visit because I cannot take it at home anymore. She then told me she kept telling T that she was leaving the day after the party. We talked and I told her that maybe the way she was handling things was not the right way. She then told me that she could tell me something that would make me say to leave T right now. I said well you can't say that and then not tell me what is going on. Then she told me that she became an alcholic because T's friend R was divorced and not having sex so T wanted to have a threesome with him, T and S. At this time T had alot of control over her so she said she would. I guess when they got to R's house R could not do it. So T told S a few weeks later that since R could not do the threesome that S should just go over and have sex with him and she did. My heart breaks for her! She did this with R for almost a year. T would call her and say oh stop by R's house on your way home and she did it every time. S finally had enough and said I am not doing this anymore. I was in shock I never once thought any husband would ever do that to his wife let alone T. I just kept saying on the phone OMG are you kidding me. That is why she started drinking because she felt like a whore and who wouldn't feel that way. She was also struggling with the fact that T is her husband and if he loved her how could he make her do that???? I asked her why she never told me and she said she didn't want to break my heart. It did!!! It broke my heart for her!! I told her then that she should of told me because I would of came and got her out of rehab and took her home to divorce his stupid ass!!! I said I am sorry you went thru that alone. I am however happy that you see the wrong in it now and that he has no control over you anymore. I am beyond digusted! I didn't sleep last night because I was so repulsed by it. The part that really gets me is R nor T never thought anything of it. S told me that when T came and seen her in rehab on Mothers Day when he was leaving she said she yelled at him you know why I am here don't you and she said T turned with a tear in his eye and said yes I know why your here. I mean I am not stupid I know things like this happen but OMG it is just disgusting. The other part that pisses me off is just Saturday night T and R are in her kitchen like nothing is wrong like nothing ever happened. FUCKING SICK!!! I told S last night you better get the hell out of that marriage.

I hung up with S and Nick was looking at me like WTF was that about so I told him and his jaw dropped to the ground. At that point, I hugged him and said I am so thankful for you. I am thankful for you every day!!! Could you please keep S in your prayers! I don't know how this will end but I hope it is for the better for S.