Miserable

I have just been a miserable bitch the last few days. This pinched nerve is getting my my nerves literally. I went to the chiropractor Monday and Tuesday with not alot of relief. I love my chiropractor and have been going to him for 10 years. When he was on vacation a few months ago I went to see the guy that takes care of is patients when he is gone. I loved him!!! I had this similiar pain and he took it away almost instantly. I still returned my old chiro guy but after Tuesday I was frustrated. The only way I can describe this pain is like a tooth ache only in your neck, shoulder and down your arm. So yesterday I decided to give him a try again. I went right after work and I didn't trash talk my other guy I just said that the last time I came to him it felt alot better. He got me in a room and he takes this little meter thing and runs in down your spine to see where it is inflamed. He said oh it is up here in your neck and down here in your hip. He adjusted me and on my way I went. It was still sore but feeling a little bit better already. He also showed me stretches to do and they work. Today it is probably the best it has been which makes me happy. It is still sore but better than it has been. He thinks and I think it is from sitting here at the computer at work. I changed my chair around today and that has helped. The other thing that bugs me is I love to sleep on my side and I have not been able to do that. I have had to sleep on my back. I FREGGEN HATE THAT! I have not slept real good in a few nights. I have something hiliarous to tell you tho and I hope I can make it come across as funny as it really was. Last night at like 4 in the morning Nick all of a sudden jumped up and starting yelling and flailing around the bed. Saying wooo hoo whoo hoo and then he sat up on the side of the bed. I was hunny what was that all about. He said I had a dream I was looking up at the ceiling and people were coming out at me. I started cracking up. First of all people who are scared usually just yell. This was like he was seeing some nice boobs or something. OMG I laughed on and off for an hour. I just cracked up typing that. Too funny!!! Just typing this is killing my shoulder.

That is all that has been going on over here. I hope everyone has a good day!

The nerve!!!

Over the last few years or so I sometimes get this pain in my shoulder area that seems to come from my neck. It started like last week and last night was killing me to the point I was crabby with everyone! I went to the chiropractor yesterday and today and it seems to be a little bit better but it still hurts :( it is bearable tho! I think it is the way I sit at work because it hurts more when I am sitting. I am glad it is bearable tho and it by tonight it is better :)

Our weekend was pretty laid back. Friday night we went to a car show at my favorite country bar. They have the best outdoor tiki bar ever! We had fun... Sarah's BF came with us... yay! I am not sure about him anymore. He is way too quiet for our family and for her. After the car show we came back home and he came with us. Nick and I were sitting on the couch, Sarah on the love seat and the BF was in the chair. They were both being a little quiet and texting. Nick drove him home and the minute he got out of the car he started calling her saying he was pissed at her because she would not come sit on his lap on the chair. WTF I don't allow that to go on in my house. I hate when kids are hanging all over each other. Anyway, she was not too bothered about it at all which I was happy about. Saturday night we went to our friends for a bonfire and she wanted to know if he could come. I said no because she had been with him for like 3 days in a row. I went on Facebook before we left and her status was... I know there is nothing I can do to make it better??? I asked her what that was about and she said that he told her go to the bonfire and I will sit home with nothing to do. Again WTF???? I was not happy and told her he seems a little bit too controlling but she gave me that look like she was pissed at me so I quit talking. I just decided that I am gonna make it hard on her to see him and eventually maybe he will move on LOL. I just don't understand the control thing and I know she is only 15 and naive but I am trying to show her that it is not right. I know I have to let her learn on her own but damn that is the hardest thing.

Marco is just flat out grounded. He went to the outdoor mall with Colleen on Sunday. I knew my sister was coming to see my mom in her wedding dress and her husband in his tux yuckkk sorry I just threw up in my mouth a little bit LOL. Anyway, Nick and I ended up meeting them at Partridge for a little bit. We got home and I went on Facebook yesterday to see a picture of Marco and my sister in her weddind dress at the mall. I was PISSED!!! I called Colleen to see if she knew anything about it and she didn't. I talked to Marco and he said my sister called him and said where are you... he told her... she came up there and told him to come to parking lot. I asked him where he told Colleen he was going to fill out an application at the Crocs store. He came home didn't say a word to me but did tell Sarah and said don't say anything to mom. There is most of the reason I am pissed because he lied to several people here and he knows he not supposed to talk or see her. I know that sounds retarded but I truly do not want my kids exposed to her bullshit abuse. Like I said before I love her but I choose not to have her in my life as she chooses not to have me in her life. The same goes for my kids why expose Marco to adult business and bullshit when he is only 15. It pisses me off. I have the password for Marco's Facebook because I have been keeping an eye on him without him knowing. I sent her a message from his Facebook again asking her to leave the kids alone. The response I got was GET A CLUE GET A LIFE AND GO TO HELL! Yeah she never does anything wrong. One day she will see what she has done. Anyway so Marco is grounded for lying. I took his Facebook account and changed the password and email so he cannot get into it. I guess he will learn the hard way. I tried to explain to him last night that I am doing this because it is my job as a parent to protect him as much as I can. I said once he is a parent he will understand. I went to see my mom yesterday and all she talked about was my sister coming there in her wedding dress. I let her talk until I had enough and said mom can we change the subject. Then she said Don carried picked her up and carried her out of here too. I could not control my tongue after that I said ok so what he is an asshole! LOL I am still trying to learn to control my mouth and it looks like I failed in this situation. Seriously, I would like some feeback on this... nobody ever comments. So please tell me if I am being a complete ass. I am only doing what a mom does and that is protect.

As for Dom he is all registered and ready for school. He told me he is taking 18 credits. I said Dom that is a little much why not try 12 your first semester and then see how it goes. He said I can do it. I will let him learn on his own :) that is the only thing you can do in that situation. Live and learn we all did it now it is his turn.

I better get back to work :( I hope everyone has a great day!

Compliments

After work yesterday I went and got my nails done and I love that! I think pedicures are the best thing in the world. I love the massage they give you! The girl that does mine give me an extra long massage because she knows how much I love it. I tip her very well too LOL. As I was getting my manicure Nick came up there. I was SHOCKED! He knew I was going there but he never comes up there. I said Hunny... what ya doing? He said I was driving by and decided to stop instead of going home and sitting by myself. He has been acting a little strange since that whole thing happened with S. She she left her house Sunday night and went and stayed with the guy she grew up with. I guess she has had enough and can't deal with her T anymore. I can't say that I blame her at all. She has been calling me every day and has been having more fun in the last week than she probably has in like 10 years. She is going home today to check on things. I told her when she left to make sure she told T because the last thing she needs is him to file abdonment charges in their divorce. I don't fault her for what she is doing but she needs to get her affairs at home in order. So I think Nick is feeling a little insecure and he has no reason to feel that way. I love that man with all my heart! In fact, I told him last night it never seems to matter what we are doing just as long as we are together. We can be laying around at night watching TV and laughing our asses off. I love that I never had that in my first marriage.

So again, I started this post early in the morning at work and now it is 1:00 and I am trying to remember all the things I wanted to blog about LOL. Now I remember what I was going to blog about. I went and played Cootie Bingo with my mom last night. She was at a table with some young people like in their 30's. It is so sad and I am not sure what is wrong with them. The one looks like he was in a car accident and other maybe the other one may have MS or something. The young guy sitting next to my mom after I sat down said are you married? I said yes... he said your beautiful. I said thanks and he must of told me that like 5 times while I was there. The lady across from my mom said you have 3 kids and your just a skinny little thing LOL. I said can I come and kiss you. I am anything but skinny but it is still nice to hear. I have never been one of those really skinny girls. I am curvy LOL. I got a booty, hips and boobs. Nick told me the other night I needed to quit walking. I said why and he said cuz your booty is kinda out there LOL. He likes it and I told him I would rather have it out there than have it hanging down to my knees. Anyways compliements whether it be true or not always feel good.

I need to go now cuz I have so much work to do we have been slammed the last few days. I hope everyone has a good day!

Sleep

I think sleep is just great!!! I have this habit in the summer of staying up way too late. I get up at 6:00 a.m. and in the winter I go to sleep at about 10:00 or 10:30 at the latest. Who am I kidding I usually fall asleep on the couch at like 9ish LOL. The summer I stay up till about midnight or so which is way too late for me. Yesterday after work I went home started dinner and then went for my walk. I got home ate, washed my face and sat on the couch to watch some tv it was like 9ish. I woke up this morning in my bed not knowing how I got there at like 5:30 a.m. I was full of energy!!! Yayyyy!!! I got some much needed sleep! Sleep helps my mental state of mind. I feel revitalized today just in time for Cootie Bingo with my mom tonight. I think that sometimes our emotions react better when we are rested. Well at least for me they do. Nick learned real fast when we started dating that if I was tired I just needed to sleep and that tired and hungry were not a good combination at all. I guess I have always been that way. I get so bitchy! I envy people that are tired and just go with it for the mostpart. I however am not one of those people. It is what it is!

Sarah got home from cheer camp Monday night. My poor girl was exhausted, sunburnt and full of bug bites. She took a shower, ate and went to bed. Marco goes to band camp August 1st. I can't believe how fast summer is going by. I do get excited for football season tho. I love high school football games. However, I don't even want to think about summer being over.

I have to tell you we have not went on a vacation this year at all. We normally go up north at least 5 times in the summer but with money being so tight we have not gone anywhere. In fact, I am becoming such a miser when it comes to money let me tell you about Nick and I's trip to Wal Mart Sunday:

Me: Hunny I am not sure which paper towel to get

Nick: Get this one

Me: I think this one has more in it and it is cheaper

Nick: It is a game see this one says it has the equivalent of 12 rolls and it is only 8

Me: This one looks like the rolls are bigger

We seriously stood there for like 5 minutes debating on which paper towel to get. I have never been like that but now I am. I guess this little recession brings out the best in all of us!

Have a good day!!!

My last post

As I said at the bottom of that post it took me most of the day to complete it. I just read it and I do repeat myself and it seems a little jumbled LOL It is because there was so much time in between that I wanted to get it done and didn't remember what I said earlier. So sorry for that but I am sure you get the point.

Blah!

As I wrote yesterday, I was trying to wrap my mind around what my friend just told me. I was in a great mood tho bouncing around work. I left work and decided to go see my mom. I love my mom a ton but I will tell you she can bring me down in 2 seconds. I think most moms have that ability because they know the target spots. I walked in her room and she said hi babydoll. I said hi are you having a good day. She said yep. So I sat down to visit with her and she pointed out some flowers on her window sill. I said who gave you those? She said on of the nurse's aids. I said that is nice! Then she said yep everyone does nice things for me except you! I was so hurt... I didn't respond just stared at the TV because I was fighting back tears. She kept looking at me for a response and I just said Ok mom. Then she started crying because my sister is suppose to come this weekend and she wanted me to buy a disposable camera so she could take pictures. She also said she wanted a picture of me and my sister. I understand her feelings because it is her daughter. However, I am so tired of feeling less that my sister. It has been that way my whole life. Whether it was said or implied it is the way that I felt. When my sister comes this weekend she is supposed to wear her wedding dress and Don is supposed to have on a a tux. I doubt she will come but hey maybe this time she will. I hope she does for my mom's sake but her track record is against her. When my sister was married before she had the perfect husband, perfect house and perfect kids. That is the way it appeared to everyone I know differently now. I was always the one who had the uncontrollable kids or dirty kids. Lets face it I had 2 boys and a girl boys are always dirty when they are young for shits sake they are boys. At the time I didn't argue about it because they would always tell me there is no difference in raising boys and girls. I know there is but why argue over it. The other thing my sister always teased me about growing up was the fact that I was always bigger than her. She is still tiny like a size 1. When I was younger I was soooo chubby. I stayed chubby until I was about 14. She would always make fun of me and the size of my underware. I am 43 now and that shit stays with you for the rest of your life. I have overcome it for the most part but still am a little self conscieous (spelling?). So my sister will drive in on her white horse and be the superstar to my mom. I, however, am shit because I do nothing for her! I know in my mind that is not true but that is the way my mom makes me feel. I have probably said this in an earlier post but I will say it again. My sister once told me that she considered her family like the Waltons and my family was like the Griswolds. Hurtful, but again I got used to it. I try not to let these feelings come out very often but it is so hard when my mom says shit like to me. I only stayed about 20 minutes after she said that because I was literally fighting back my tears. In fact, I had to put on my sunglasses to hide them. I walked out of her room and cried the whole way home. I just feel like I always try to be the best person and I can be to everyone around me not just my mom and when something like that is said it cuts me to the core. I prayed when I got home for some understanding of this and why she feels the need to do this. My mom kept calling my cell phone and I would not answer she also called Nick's cell phone and he answered it and told her I went to the store. He asked her if everything was ok and she said yep just have her call me. I listened to my messages and they were all saying sorry that she would never want to hurt my feelings. I am sick of getting my feelings hurt! I try not to hurt anyone's feelings it happens sometimes but definitely not if I can help it. I know everyone has their baggage from childhood but sometimes those feelings are so raw you just have to cry to get it out. When I got home yesterday Marco said mom are you ok. I said yes I am fine. I went in my bathroom and tried to get myself together, changed and went for a walk. Walking does help me because as I am walking I process my thoughts. I usually feel better when I get home. Nick understands me the most. So I usually talk it thru with him as well. Sometimes I feel like I expect too much from people and that I over-react and he assures me that I don't.

I started this post at like 8:30 this morning and it is now 2:00 in the afternoon. Work has been a little bit busy today. I just had to get out what was on my mind. Afterall, isn't that what this blog is for. I guess life can always be roses. I hope everyone has a good day!

Is this a movie --- can't be real

This is gonna be a long one so grab a cup of coffee before you start. I go thru life thinking that most everyone has the same morals or beliefs that I do. I know this is not true but for the most part everyone that I have in my life does. I choose it that way. What I am about to say is not even gonna sound real to you and me well I am still trying to process this and I didn't even sleep last night because of it.

I have quite a few friends that I have had since Elementary school and High school. My feeling on that is it is hard to find good friends so when you do you need to hang on to them. I have this one friend I will call him T and we have been friends since Kindergarten. In High school he started dating my good friend I will call her S. I told her at the time not to because he was known as a womanizer. They have been together since. They have had a pretty rocky marriage for the whole marriage but they have stayed together. They have 2 boys that are right around the ages my of kids. Me and S were very close when I stayed home and my kids were little. We would go to one anothers house and just hang out with the kids all day. The more time went on I noticed her kids were kinda mean to mine which I was not very fond of and I noticed she was very obsessed with T. She would not do anything on her own. I would call her to go out with me to Wal Mart and she would not go. T traveled alot and was gone most of the time. She would just sit home and do nothing. I still remained friends with her but we just mostly talked on the phone. I would always tell her she needed to do something for herself and quit being so obsessed with T. She used to always tell me she would die without him. I would always assure her that she would not and she needed to get more independant. This drove me crazy!!! When I got divorced she was always there for me to talk to. She really is a wonderful person just obsessed with her husband. He always had this sick control over her.

Her mom called one night and told me that S was drinking and out of control. I said why? Her mom wanted me to come over her house and talk to S. So I went over there to find S shaking and just full of anxiety. I kept asking her what was wrong? She would say I don't know I just feel anxious. She was going to her dr and he had her on some anxiety medicine and it still was not helping. I tried to talk to her and sooth her in some way it just did not work. A few days after that T called me and told me she had a drinking problem. I was in shock because she really was never a drinker. I kept asking him what is going on with her. He would say I don't know but I am taking her to rehab. After I hung up with T, S called me back to tell me in her drunk voice saying that she was not going to rehab. I told her then if she had a problem she needed to go and that I would come and go with her. She ended up going a few days later T and her mom took her. I was heartbroken for her and wondering what in the heck happened to make her drink the way she had been drinking. T called me every night she was in rehab crying to me on the phone telling me that he hoped it worked and he was not sure what the problem was but that they would find out thru the therapy at rehab. She did her rehab and was alcohol free for 2 years. I would see her occasionally at the stores. Sarah and I ran into her at Wal Mart a year ago and we ended up going back to her house to visit. She told me then that her marriage was not good and they pretty much did their own thing. T still travels alot like he is gone for almost 7 or 8 months a year. I was sad when she said that but could understand because T can be an ass. S has pretty much raised her boys by herself. I have always felt bad for her. So Saturday was her son's grad party. Nick and I got their late because I worked then went home and took a nap because I was exhausted from Kid Rock. There were very few people there when we got there S was sitting at the patio table with 2 guys. I didn't know either of them. She introduced us and one was her neighbor and the other her friend from grade school. He had got in contact with her thru Facebook. T was pissed that he was at the party. I didn't really see anything wrong with it. T stayed in the house with his friend R (that is what I will call him) now keep track of that initial because he comes up later in the story. After everyone else left we stayed and chatted in the garage for a few hours. S and I went in the house and talked. She was showing me all the medicine she is on and I said what is it for. She has high blood pressure and some other things going on. She said her dr thinks the high blood pressure is from stress. She is only about 120 pounds and small. She started talking to me again about her marriage and how she is just not happy. She also confided in me that the friend that was their from grade school she thought she liked. I told her then that I don't promote things like that but life is too short to live the way your living. I left it at that. It is hard for me because I am friends with both of them.

After we left Nick and I talked about it in the car and he said it is clear they really don't have a marriage because T was telling him pretty much the same thing. I said that is so sad. T makes good money and they are not hurting for anything but that just goes to show you money cannot buy you happiness.

Nick and I got up Sunday morning and went to church and Wal Mart when we got home I was still exhausted so I went in the bedroom and laid on the bed watching some movies. We have the caller ID that comes up on our TV. I never usually answer our house phone but it rang and I seen S's name come up. I answered it and said hey. She said what ya doing. I told her I was just relaxing and she told me she was at the friends house. I said what are you doing??? She said I just came over here to visit because I cannot take it at home anymore. She then told me she kept telling T that she was leaving the day after the party. We talked and I told her that maybe the way she was handling things was not the right way. She then told me that she could tell me something that would make me say to leave T right now. I said well you can't say that and then not tell me what is going on. Then she told me that she became an alcholic because T's friend R was divorced and not having sex so T wanted to have a threesome with him, T and S. At this time T had alot of control over her so she said she would. I guess when they got to R's house R could not do it. So T told S a few weeks later that since R could not do the threesome that S should just go over and have sex with him and she did. My heart breaks for her! She did this with R for almost a year. T would call her and say oh stop by R's house on your way home and she did it every time. S finally had enough and said I am not doing this anymore. I was in shock I never once thought any husband would ever do that to his wife let alone T. I just kept saying on the phone OMG are you kidding me. That is why she started drinking because she felt like a whore and who wouldn't feel that way. She was also struggling with the fact that T is her husband and if he loved her how could he make her do that???? I asked her why she never told me and she said she didn't want to break my heart. It did!!! It broke my heart for her!! I told her then that she should of told me because I would of came and got her out of rehab and took her home to divorce his stupid ass!!! I said I am sorry you went thru that alone. I am however happy that you see the wrong in it now and that he has no control over you anymore. I am beyond digusted! I didn't sleep last night because I was so repulsed by it. The part that really gets me is R nor T never thought anything of it. S told me that when T came and seen her in rehab on Mothers Day when he was leaving she said she yelled at him you know why I am here don't you and she said T turned with a tear in his eye and said yes I know why your here. I mean I am not stupid I know things like this happen but OMG it is just disgusting. The other part that pisses me off is just Saturday night T and R are in her kitchen like nothing is wrong like nothing ever happened. FUCKING SICK!!! I told S last night you better get the hell out of that marriage.

I hung up with S and Nick was looking at me like WTF was that about so I told him and his jaw dropped to the ground. At that point, I hugged him and said I am so thankful for you. I am thankful for you every day!!! Could you please keep S in your prayers! I don't know how this will end but I hope it is for the better for S.

General Admission please

When I bought our tickets for Kid Rock I bought them online. I had no idea what seats we had until the tickets came. I was not paying attention at all. I just knew I wanted tickets. I kept clicking the button to buy tickets any available. The tickets came in the mail and they were for general admission. I have never been to a concert with general admission. I was a little skeptical about that and what it involved. I kept asking everyone at work what does general admission mean. The concert was at Comerica Park which is a baseball field. Everyone at work kept telling me that general admission meant no seats. I kept thinking nahhh they can't be right. By the way, the GA tickets were the most expensive tickets you could buy which normally expensive means good seats. Well, not so much in this case. We got there at like 4:30 because it started at 6:30 and Detroit is crazy when there is a concert like that going on so we wanted to be sure to get parking. I found out when we got there that GA meant you were on the field. I thought great we will be close. The only thing I did not know about GA is there is about 8,000 people down there with you and everyone is standing and crammed in there. It was crazy! I told Nick lets go up and see if we can stand somewhere up there where it isn't so crowded. We ended up standing in section that had seats. I was happy to be where we had some space to move. Leonard Skynard opened for the Kid Rock and he was great! The last song he played was Freebird!!! That is one of my all time favorites! Between shows we went to the bathroom and the line was crazy! This girl standing behind me started talking to me this is how the conversation went:

Girl: So you having fun?

Me: Yes and you?

Girl: I don't feel so good

Me: Oh did you drink too much (now mind you it is only like 8:45)

Girl: Yes

Me: What time did you start drinking?

Girl: About 2:00

Me: Damn I would be sleeping by now. I hope you feel better.

Girl: Actually I feel like I need to throw up!

Me: If you do will you give me a warning because I will get sick too if you do that right here

Girl: Oh no problem I will let you know girl I love you!

Me: If you need to get sick your probably better off doing in the garbage can right there
rather than sticking your head in that nasty toilet

Girl: yeah your right (as she was gagging)

Me: Seriously don't throw up right here cuz I will be PISSED!

Girl: (still gagging) no I should be ok

I could not wait to get into the actual stall because I was thinking this girl is gonna puke right here. She didn't end up puking by me but I am sure she did in the stall. All I can say is I am damn glad it was not by me LOL. Anyway where we were standing there were 2 men in these seats right in front of us. It was like one row of seats all by itself which meant you had plenty of room. Kid Rock didn't come on stage until 10:00 and by 9:00 my feet were killing me because I wore cute sandals like a dumb ass. So these 2 guys were getting up and looked like they were leaving and I asked them are you leaving? They said yes I was like OMG can we have your seats? So we got to sit right there. It was so great! You could see all the big buildings downtown and Kid Rock rocked it out as usual. He is so great in concert if you have never gone you need to even if your not a huge fan of his music. He did a tribute to some of his favorite singers that have passed away and the last one was Michael Jackson. He and another back up singer sang ABC's and it was great!!! He had fireworks going off on stage. Just an amazing show! I was with my best friend and lover on a beautiful night in the city and it was wonderful!

I am at work now and tired as hell. I got 2 parties to go to today and a wedding I need to get Marco to by 4:15. I have no time to take a nap at all. Once I get home and take a shower I should get a second wind or at least I am hoping!

I hope everyone has a good weekend! Enjoy!

Living large!

We ended up not going to the car show last night because it kept looking like rain. Instead we stayed home and ate dinner. F came over to see Sarah. Nick and I were living large in the garage LOL. I told you we have a TV out there and the kids hate it. I love it!!!! We always sit on these folding card table chairs and frankly it hurts my ass. Last night I decided to go into the house and grab this chair out of Sarah's room. Oh my was I comfy! Nick got the office chair and he was comfy too. We were watching a breaking new story in the area. It was horrible a huge fire on I75 from a semi. The weird thing was it blew out the whole overpass on the expressway. It was bizarre. The firemen were there like 5 hours trying to get it under control and it was still smoking this morning from like 7:00 last night. The news crew later announced that the driver of the semi survived with minor injuries. I guess he got in the accident and ran before the explosion. Blessed! Nobody was hurt! However, it will take them alot of money and time to rebuild the overpass. Nick said this story was on CNN last night. It was interesting to watch. I was content in my garage with the door open LOL. It was a hot and humid summer night which I love! I could just be sitting there not doing anything and loving the weather.

Tonight we are going to a free concert in the park with Courtney's parents. It should be fun. Then tomorrow night is Kid Rock! I am so flippin excited I cannot stand it. Saturday I have to work til 1:00 I am not happy about that but it is what it is. Then we have a Graduation party and a bonfire party to go that night. Busy weekend!

I was talking to one of our vendors at work today and she is going thru a rough time. I didn't ask the details. I simply asked her if she was spiritual? She answered yes. I told her the power of prayer is amazing! I sometimes don't like asking people these things because it is a touchy subject to say the least. At the same time, I want to be a Christian and spread God's word. I told her a prayer I use when I need some comfort and she said she would try it. I said it will work for you. I know with myself sometimes we always want to believe it is the other person that we are mad at but in fact it is something within ourselves that we have to change or pray for the other person that is causing the problem. We are on a good series in church right now. It is called Trash Talk and it explains why we do this. The thing we need to ask ourselves before we say something is: is it necessary, kind and true. If not then we should probably not be saying it. It also says that we need to quit telling ourselves to quit saying mean things instead we should pray to God to get the root of the problem in our hearts. That is where it all stems from. Very interesting! I always leave church with something that I can use to make me a better person!

Two posts in one day means...

That I am bored here at work! I normally don't work till 5:00 I normally leave at like 4:00 or so. This week tho I have been here till 5:00 all week and it sucks! Between 4:00 and 5:00 hardly anyone comes in and the phones don't ring too much. All I can hear right now is the construction next door. They are building a Wal Mart Super Center right next to us. I can't wait either. I can shop right after work or run over during the day to grab stuff. It will be nice! So I am sitting here waiting for 5:00. We are supposed to go to a car show tonight but the weather isn't looking so good and I don't take my baby out if it even looks remotely like rain. Nick just cleaned it this weekend too so I don't think he would be pleased LOL.

Have a good day!

Eddies

Last night Nick and I went to this little old fashioned drive in called Eddie's Drive In. You pull up to the little garage (as I call it) and they wait on you with roller skates. It is a blast from the past! The food is great too. Sometimes we take the Chevelle there but last night we took Nick's truck. After we left there the weather was so beautiful out that we decided to go to the outdoor mall and walk around. There is an MJR theatre there and OMG the lines were so long for the opening of the new Harry Potter movie. Kids were dressed up and even adults were too. Among those people in line was Dominic and his friends. They got there at 7:30 to make sure they got tickets to the movie and then were just hanging out till midnight when the movie was showing. I am not a Harry Potter fan at all. Dominic always has been and I remember when the first movie came out taking him to see it and having to sit thru something I was not even interested in. I can't even tell you how many movies I have sat thru that I didn't want to see when my kids were younger. Now he is able to go himself... and I am so thankful for that. He was so excited like a kid. Colleen's niece just opened up a store at that mall selling dogs. They just got their shipmentof dogs in yesterday. They had 23 cute little puppies all over the place. They are selling each one for $1,200.00. I think that is alot of money in this economy. The thing with this mall is it is beautiful to walk thru and alot of things to do but I don't see many people carrying alot of bags. They have outdoor tables and big screen TVs. They also have an outdoor Bocci ball court. I just hope her niece does good there.

I have to tell you this. I have been sleeping like crap on and off for a few years. When Nick and I got married he decided he needs to sleep with the TV on. The whole time I lived alone I never once turned that TV on in my room. I would go to sleep at night in total SILENCE! I like it that way. I was telling Nick the other night I think that is why I have been sleeping like shit beccause of the TV being on. Since last week I have been turning it off the minute he falls asleep and I have been sleeping like a baby. He is not real happy about it but I certainly am. I get up at least once a night to go to the bathroom and then when I get back in bed if the TV is on then I start to watch it or listen to it which makes me not fall back asleep real fast. I love the silence!

Only 2 more days til KID ROCK!!!! I cannot wait! I found out last night that my niece is going to the same night. I told her we are gonna have to meet up and hang out. The concert is in Comerica Park downtown. Downtown Detroit in the summer has alot going on and it is FUN!

Have a good day everyone!

Chased by a Miniature Goat

I got home from work yesterday and Sarah asked if she could go to the new boy's house LOL I will refer to him as F. We live in a suburb but drive 1 mile one way and there are farms. I think builders just decided to put in a bunch of subdivisions around farms. He lives on a farm. It was really nice pulling in the driveway horses were off to one side, chickens on the other side and the little miniature goat standing in the driveway. I am not an animal lover I mean I don't hate them but certainly don't like them in my space. I got out and the goat was looking at me as I started to walk. I got nervous so I started running and the goat ran right after me. I mean he was practically licking the back of my feet. I kept yelling to Sarah to get someone and she just laughed. When I got to the garage the door opened and a huge white dog came right at me. I started jumping and screaming. I then look over and there is F's dad LOL. Nice way to meet someone's parents for the first time. He was laughing at me too. When I left I asked if they could hold the goat while I walked to my car LOL. I mean they have horns on there head it looks to me like it could be a dangerous situation. I didn't want no horn up my ass LOL.

My work is on a busy street that our showroom looks out to. President Obama is in town today and lands at the air base right down the road. I am currently watching out the window as the police block off the road for his travel to the College. Do you think I have time to run out and stop him to let him know what I think about Michigan's economy??? LOL

Kid Rock is in 3 days I cannot wait!!!!! It is gonna be fun!!! Have a great day everyone!

RNTeri where are you???

Great weekend!

I had a great weekend! I went out Friday night with my friend Sharyl and Nick for dinner and a few drinks. We went out to an outside tiki bar and the weather was perfect. I got up Saturday morning it was rainy and cool. I laid around in my room playing on my laptop and watching movies til about noon. I never do that and it felt so good! Went and got my hair did LOL Then went out again with Nick and some friends. I got up Sunday morning to church, came home laid out in the sun and then had my niece over for dinner. I love summer especially summer nights. Nick put lights all around our deck and I honestly could sleep out there. It is beautiful.

Sarah had a date Saturday to go to the show with a new boy and her girlfriend was going with his cousin too. This new boy drives and I am not ready for it at all. He was coming over and I told her that I would drive her. This was the first time he was coming over too. I met him and decided that even if I did drive her and he drove himself they could always leave the show. I said to him well since I am driving Sarah why don't I just drive all of you. He smiled and said ok let me go get some stuff out of my car. I was happy but Sarah on the other hand was not! She will get over it. I guess eventually I will be ready for this but not just yet!

Everyone have a good day! Kid Rock is Friday nite... and I can't wait!

Friday

It is Friday and I am soooo glad. I got paid today! I hate getting paid every 2 weeks. Today is my sisters wedding. I can't wait til it is over with because I have been listening to my mom cry the whole week. Last night she kept calling and I did not answer because I was just did not want to deal with listening to her cry. Finally I answered the phone and she asked me if I could call and order a dozen red roses to send to my sister today. On one hand I wanted to say hell no because she hurts me and mom constantly but I was the good person and told her I would. It made her feel better. Since she has had her stroke she always wants us to buy stuff for people for holidays and things. Well, she really does not have the money to do that but she does not know that because she still thinks she has her credit cards I have never told her any different because it really does not matter. The kids know to thank Grandma at Christmas and holidays for whatever she wanted me to buy them. I make a list of what she wants me to buy them and then tell the kids ok thank grandma for blah blah. I know it sounds silly but it make her happy. She really thinks she buys them these things. I texted my niece last night to tell her to tell my nasty sister to call my mom today and thank her for the red roses which I really did not send. See how it goes LOL. Hopefully she will remember to do that. I know her concern is not my mom and never has been. I just know it made my mom feel better and I am sure it put a smile on her face :) screw my sister I did it for my mom :) My niece told me yesterday that the only people from our family that are going is her and her sisters. How freggen sad is that??? I just keep thinking that is the way she wanted it so let it be! Like I said I will be glad when today is over with. I still hope she spills wine on her dress... or her hair looks like shit... or she gets rained on. I know it is not nice but hey right now it is the way I feel!



Colleen and her family came over last night for dinner. We sat out on the deck and talked it was nice. It was so nice out last night that I could of sat out there all night except for the bugs. OMG the bugs were horrrible.



Tonight we are going to a car show with some friends so it should be fun! I hope everyone enjoys their weekend!

Can't teach and old dog new tricks

I am stills struggling with my sisters wedding. Why is it that some people are able to just cut someone out of their life and be fine with it. I am not FINE with it. I am a work in progress. Unfortunately, if ever she wants to have a relationship with me I don't think I can ever do that. The hurt I have is so raw that I know in time it will heal. I am still in the process of forgiving her but that takes time. I just don't think I can ever trust her again. Trust is the biggest part of a relationship and if you don't have it you can't have a relationship. I guess time will tell. I just wish I could get the thoughts out of my mind. I say every morning when I get up that I am not going to think about it... and at one point during the day or several for that mattter I think about it. I am putting my best foot forward and trying to not think about it. Think about the things that matter the most MY FAMILY!



We went out last night with the Chevelle to a car show. There were almost 100 cars there and it was fun until... this guy that was sitting in a chair in front of me cross his legs and he stuff was hanging out of his shorts. He was in his late 60's. I was tramatized. I told Nick OMG I look and then I said is my face red? Yes it was! Seriously, wear smaller underware so that don't happen LOL.



It is beautiful out today I hope everyone enjoys their day!

Anger

This post is done totally out of anger and PMS! My sisters wedding is this Friday and like I said before I am not invited. I have learned to accept the fact that we don't have a relationship anymore. I am working on forgiveness with her. It is gonna take time. What I am not accepting is the fact that my mom's feelings are so hurt right now. She has been crying since Monday over the fact that nobody from our family will be at her wedding. She said to me this morning what are people gonna think? I said mom I don't care it is the way she wants it so let her take responsibility for her actions. I understand her feelings from a mom's perspective but there is nothing I can do about it. My sister does not have to listen to my mom cry over this I do! That is what pisses me off. I am always picking up her fucking pieces when she hurts my mom. I have done this my whole life and I am so fucking sick of it! She did not even send my mom an invitation. When my mom asked her why she didn't get one my sister said oh because I don't want Kelly to know where it is. WTF is that... this is your mom! Like I would drive 3 hours away to cause a scene not.so.much. This blog helps me at times like because I can get these feelings out and hopefully be done with them. Is it bad for me to hope that she spills wine on her wedding dress or her hair gets rained on and is flat???? That is the way I am feeling right now! Ok just had to get this out. I hope nobody is afraid of me now because normally I am a nice person LOL

Back to work

It is Tuesday and I am back at work. It is ok because I like some kind of schedule to work off of because if I don't have one then my ADD takes over and I have a million things going on. The funeral went ok or should I say as good as could be expected. I told the kids last night that we really need to be there for Aunt Colleen because she is gonna need us.

I went home today at 12:30 to make lunch and guess what??? My kids were all still sleeping! I am getting a little annoyed with the fact that I have to come home clean up, make dinner and do other things around the house after working all day. Now normally I don't get annoyed but when they stay up til 5:00 a.m. and then sleep all day I think I have that right to get annoyed with them. They.do.NOTHING! I shouldn't say they don't do anything but they do the bare minimal of house chores. Can you tell I got PMS??? I did what any mother with PMS would do... I had a fit and started waking them all up. I made lists of things I want them to do around the house. Get this tho I cannot ground Dom he is gonna be 19 in October that would be ridiculous so I told him if his were not done then he owed me $25.00 LMAO. I told the twins if they didn't do theirs then they were grounded for 2 days. I guess it was a fit of anger but I just can't stand the fact that they sleep all day. On Saturday I woke Sarah up at 1:30 that is crazy. It is what it is... I don't like it at all tho. Hopefully when I get home their stuff will be done because if it is not mama is gonna have a fit. Let me hear your thoughts... I know people read here and I would love to hear from you. Let me know what ya think.

I have something funny to share on the post with the pictures of graduation if you click on them they will enlarge. Click on the one of my mom alone and you will see all the blue gum stuck in her dentures LMAO. I think I shared that story in another post I am too lazy right now to look back and see. She is too cute and I think you will get a laugh out of that picture.

Have a good one and I am hoping chores are done when I get home!

the day

I am sitting here this morning and everyone is still sleeping or should I say snoring. I am gonna wake Nick up in a minute to see if he wants to go to church with me. Then later in the afternoon we are off to the funeral home for Colleen's mom. I am so sad for her. I remember when my dad died I didn't even want to go and I kept saying I was wearing my big sweatshirt and jeans because that is the way I felt. I got dressed up and put my semi-happy face on and got thru it. I think that is what you do when someone close to you passes. I know everyone has good intentions by saying things like I am so sorry. It just does not seem to matter. I have learned to say there is nothing I can say to you to make you feel better. It is that simple. So today I will be there for my BFF and hope that God shines his grace and mercy down on her to get her thru the day :)

Happy Fourth of July!

The weather this week has been horrible! It is nice today tho... I am thankful for that. We are celebrating today at my counsin's house with a huge BBQ then going to see fireworks. I am excited cuz I love to be with family and fireworks.

Yesterday we went to beach and park. We took Sarah's friend Courtney. She has never fished before so we were teaching her. So she was standing close to the shore and a bunch of ducks came up she said oh look the duck is eating my worm. All of a sudden the duck started quacking like crazy. SHE CAUGHT A DUCK LOL! Another duck came over and started attacking the duck I don't know why but Nick was trying to cut the line so free the duck. He was chasing the LOL I was cracking up! I have never seen anything like it and I didn't have my camera. Too funny!

I hope everyone enjoys their day today!!!!

Graduation pictures

Here are more of the pictures. Since I can't align them the way I want I will tell here who they are LOL. The first one is of Dom, me and his favorite teacher, then me, Sarah, Colleen and my mom, Dom and me, then my mom with blue gum in her teeth, then of course all of us, then me Nick and Dom. I am so very proud of Dom! I took him down to Wayne State the other day to check out the campus and it was pretty cool. He bought me a hoodie. The area around the campus is very seedy but once in the campus it is safe they even have their own police force. I am still a little nervous about him getting down there. It is in the ghetto of Detroit. As I was driving his face was just like OMG are you kidding me. He kept saying mom what is that? I said Dom those are bums that live in the field. I was trying to tell him to be sympathetic with them because you don't know their story. You can tell he grew up in the suburbs LOL. I hope they don't eat my boy alive when he gets down there LOL.

I am off to figure out what fun thing to do today!

Have a great fourth!!!!

Graduation pictures

I know it has been a few weeks now and I promised graduation pictures... well here they are

That is Dom and my mom... I was going to post more pictures but I fell alseep at the computer LOL So I guess I will have to finish tomorrow I can barely keep my eyes open. Isn't my mom adorable?

Colleen

Colleen's mom passed away yesterday. I was at the hospital with her for awhile. She comes from a family of 10 kids LOL. All the kids were there. I felt so bad for her dad he has stage 4 lung cancer and has been fighting it and doing pretty damn good for a year now. He is a trooper! If you could say a prayer for her and her family.