Anger

This post is done totally out of anger and PMS! My sisters wedding is this Friday and like I said before I am not invited. I have learned to accept the fact that we don't have a relationship anymore. I am working on forgiveness with her. It is gonna take time. What I am not accepting is the fact that my mom's feelings are so hurt right now. She has been crying since Monday over the fact that nobody from our family will be at her wedding. She said to me this morning what are people gonna think? I said mom I don't care it is the way she wants it so let her take responsibility for her actions. I understand her feelings from a mom's perspective but there is nothing I can do about it. My sister does not have to listen to my mom cry over this I do! That is what pisses me off. I am always picking up her fucking pieces when she hurts my mom. I have done this my whole life and I am so fucking sick of it! She did not even send my mom an invitation. When my mom asked her why she didn't get one my sister said oh because I don't want Kelly to know where it is. WTF is that... this is your mom! Like I would drive 3 hours away to cause a scene not.so.much. This blog helps me at times like because I can get these feelings out and hopefully be done with them. Is it bad for me to hope that she spills wine on her wedding dress or her hair gets rained on and is flat???? That is the way I am feeling right now! Ok just had to get this out. I hope nobody is afraid of me now because normally I am a nice person LOL