Fighting

Nick and I normally don't find too much. I have learned from my first marriage that I don't say anything until I am calmed down otherwise it comes out nasty and I say things I should not. Thursday night we were off the Sarah's game and it was parent night. The weather was nasty so we decided since they do the parent night thing at half time we would sit in the car and wait. Nick and I started bickering over a phone call. Yep a phone call. I thought we were over it but apparently he was not gonna drop it. So he says to me 2 minutes before half time starts that I have a choice he can drive me home to get my car which there was not enough time or I could have Dom come and pick me up cuz he was leaving. I was like WTF are you kidding me. His reply was no. I said whatever and got out with my umbrella and took off in the game. When the parent night thing was over I texted Dom to come get me and he was at church. I had to call Colleen to come get me. Talk about being pissed... that wasn't even the word for it. I was furious. All the way home I kept telling myself don't say anything until you have cooled down well that never happened. I walked in the door and just blew up at him. After screaming at him I told him to pack his shit and get out. I know the minute I said it I didn't mean it but I just could not help myself. I was so mad at him and embarrassed. So he packed a bag and I tried to talk to him as he was walking out but he was not having it. He left. I was devastated! I stayed up all night pissed at myself for saying that knowing that Ididn't mean it. I tried to text him to tell him to come home and he would not answer. I got online and looked at the account and he had already got a hotel room. I still didn't sleep all night and didn't even go to work on Friday. I tried to talk to him all day Friday and nothing. Friday night he came home but we didn't tallk he was still pissed at me. I was pissed at him too. I worked Saturday and after work I came home and we finally talked. We worked things out but why oh why do we say things we don't mean. I just try so hard to not do that. It sucks! I felt horrible. I still felt horrible on Sunday that we had to go thru that. Oh well you live and learn.

So that was my weekend. I sure hope everyone else had a better weekend.