Mothers Day

Mothers day is always a struggle for me anymore because of my mom! On Mothers day my mom, me, the kids and my Grandma used to always get together for a fun day of BBQ'g and just enjoying each others company. I always thought that it was great that my Grandma was actually a Great Grandma 6 times. In the last few years things have changed my Grandma passed away in 2004 and my mom had her stroke in 2003. So times have changed and its always a challenge for me. Any holiday anymore is a challenge for me. Life is so different now! I can normally pull myself together to enjoy them but in my heart I always yearn for the way the holidays used to be! This year we were going to have a big BBQ at our house with the whole family over. The kids were excited and so was I. Friday I am at the eye dr and I get a call from my husband saying his mom went into the hospital again. She had her hip replaced in February and has pulled it out of place 2 times now. She ended up staying in the hospital for the whole weekend and is coming home today. So I was disappointed about not being able to have out BBQ as planned. Don't get me wrong I am so glad is mom is ok! Just disappointed because this year I was actually looking forward to having everyone over.

So the day started out with my husband making me breakfast. Then the kids came home and gave me their gifts. My daughter made me a picture frame and put 3 pictures of us in it and it is so cute. My boys had my favorite picture blown up and put in a frame and the picture said Happy Mothers Day! Then my husband bought me the camera I have been wanting. So I am very thankful to have my kids and my husband! Then we headed out to see my mom at the nursing home, came home and had dinner and then headed to theh hospital to see my mother in law.

I just struggle with the life changes that have happened. I am better about it now than I used to be and I am sure the feeling of loss will never go away. I am just strongly reminded of it on the holidays!

I sure hope everyone had a wonderful Mothers Day!