Cheerleading Banquet

Yesterday I posted about Sarah's cheerleading banquet and I was saying how I was going to sit with my X and his wife. I seriously was thinking of doing that but again I kept telling myself no that isn't right to do that. I got off work, went home lounged with Sarah for a bit and then got ready to go. I did not wear the sandals I actually wore my boots LOL. In the morning I had told Sarah to tell her friend's parents to save me a seat next to them. When we got there we both had to go to the bathroom first thing in the hall. To my surprise the x's wife was in the bathroom. I continued to walk in with a smile. The whole while thinking I wish our relationship were different but at any rate it is not. We start to walk in the dining room that is already packed with people and I zero in on the people I want to sit with. Guess what I was floored because the x and his wife were sitting at the same table. I was like OMG that can't be! I walked over there my friend moved her coat she had on the seat she was saving and said I hope it is ok they asked if they could sit here. I said oh no I am fine with it. As luck would have it we were sitting right across from each other so every time she looked up she was looking at me. I was very nervous actually shaking. I kept thinking ok you can sit here and be intimidated or be yourself. I decided to let go and by myself. I was chatting with everyone except them. They talked to nobody. I had a great time. I avoided looking at them as much as possible. When dinner was served I was not eating and the lady next to me said why aren't you eating? I said oh I have food allergies so I normally don't eat at halls because I would need to know what is in everything. At that point my X rolled his eyes because he thinks food allergies were in my head. So she then looks at the X's wife and says your not eating are you on a diet? I about lost it! I composed myself to not laugh but thought wow that takes some major nerve to say that someone you don't even know. The X's wife repsonds with I am always on a diet. When dinner was finished they got up to leave. Sarah came over and said good bye. After they walked out the lady next to me said now who is their child? I said oh that would be mine. She looked all confused and I clarified that by saying that was my X. She just smiled. On the way home Sarah told me that the X's wife said to her we are leaving because we are having so much fun and this is very ackward. I mean come on does she think I am going to go away or something? It is sad that everyone can't act like adults. It is she who has pretty much exploded and came at me one time in court and has exploded other times on the phone. I don't understand that because I have so moved on in life and life is too short to make everyone ackward around you because you can't act like an adult. My relationship with my X was never great but it was never as bad as it has been since she is in his life. I went home with a smile because of what I felt I accomplished last night. I felt that I did not let them intimidate me and I was myself and not rude or anything foul towards them. I simply enjoyed the company and laughter everyone shared. I looked at it this way it is their issue not mine. Which made me feel good!

We have another busy night tonight. The twins have an ortho appt at 2:40, Sarah has therapy for her knee at 5:30 and we have a play to go to tonight at the school at 7:00. I have to admit it tho I love chaos and having a ton of things to do. I tend to get bored real easy if there is not alot of stuff going on. Nick, on the other hand, loves to relax. I struggle with that. I am too hyper most of the time to relax and when I crash from exhaustion is the time I relax.

I hope everyone has a great day today!