Renaming this blog

I think I may rename this blog to Marco's blog since it is about him all the time. I was just looking back at the last post that I did and it was almost exactly a month ago! I don't know what is going on with my child... I think someone stole him! I want my old child back. I was at work yesterday Marco called he said I did something stupid today... I said what? he said I took a pair of shorts from Jc Penney's I said yeah right I will talk to you when I get home. I totally thought he was joking. The phone rang again... it was him he said mom you have to come and get me... I said where he said the mall. I then realized he was not joking. I said let me talk to someone there... this female voice got on the phone and said we are waiting for the police you can come get your son at the loss prevention center! I felt numb... totally numb. I was shocked! I looked at the people I work with and said I have to go! I called his dad on the way we talked both shocked! I was telling myself all the way there don't yell... don't yell when you get in there. I walked in Jc Penney's feeling like the worst mom in the world and I quietly said to the lady... where is the loss prevention center... she said I will tell them your here. I walked in the room where he was and the lady said to me can you verify this information... I looked down and it was all my private information and his dads. I said why do you need this... she said we need it to get his birth certificate... some people pretend they are the parents and really aren't. At that moment I lost it... I was yelling at him and asking why??? what the hell were you thinking??? He just sat there blank with nothing to offer me. He stole a $46.00 pair of shorts. Went into the fitting room, took off the ones he was wearing, put the new ones on and left his old ones in the fitting room. We had to wait awhile for the Police to come because it is obviously not an emergency and I understand that. The guy finally said to me... I give you credit... I said why... he said most parents come in here and blame the store. I was shocked!!! Really your kid gets caught shoplifting and you have the nerve to blame the store? I would never! The cop finally came and explained that he is gonna be prosecuted. We walked out of the mall and I told Marco sit in the back seat I can't even look at you right now. I could not bring myself to look at him. His dad was mad but not as mad as me. In fact, he gave him his phone and just took away texting and grounded him for a month. I on the other hand have not even thought about his punishment yet. Today was his last day of school and it is supposed to be a day of fun and celebration. I love their last day of school. Sarah is out swimming with her friends and going to a shaving cream party tonight. He will be sitting home with me because he makes stupid choices. I am not gonna lie my heart is broken. I just wonder what is next if anything. I always hear from him I am on the right track now. That means nothing to me because I heard it May 18th and here we are again. I just wonder what the hell goes thru his head to make him do this stuff. I thank God every day for his grace and mercy he shines down on me because I would not be able to get thru this without it. I will continue to pray for my son and me.

When I got to work today they asked what was wrong yesterday when I left and I told them. I don't hide anything. A little while ago one of the guys I worked with said are you gonna hire an attorney to get him off... I said seriously? I said no why in the world would I want to do that they have him on tape stealing what kind of defense would I have to that. That is what is wrong with this world... it bothers me. Nobody is accountable for their actions. It makes me sick.