Feelings

I love my nieces like they were my own. When they were little me and my sister stayed home with them. We were together alot. The kids grew up very close. My oldest niece M (will call her that). My sister had her in 1986 and I was not married and I did everything with her. I would pick her up every Friday night, we would go to dinner, shopping and then she would come spend the night with me at my apartment. I would take her home Saturday morning after breakfast. She was my buddy. As she got older, I got married and had kids nothing changed. She would call me every day just to see how my day was. I adored her. When my sister had her middle one T I got pregnant with Dom 3 months later. I did things with her but not near as much as I did with M. I was still close with her but more or so as she got older. My sister and I were pregnant at the same time me with my twins and her with her last K. They were born only 5 weeks apart K being the born first. I felt so dang guilty because the last thing I wanted to do when I went to her house was hold a baby LOL. I had 2 myself and a 2 1/2 year old. Nonetheless, I was close to K too. Sarah and K have been close since birth. M on the other hand, was so attached to me that every time we were all together she would cry if she could not come home with me. She did this until she was like 16. I always felt guilty because I didn't want to take one without taking all of them. So there were alot of times I sported around with 6 kids. That was hiliarious because if I took them out to eat everyone would see me come in with all these kids and give me a look like don't you dare sit by me. I would give them all the talk before we got out about behaving in whereever we were at. They were all pretty good and if anyone acted up it was usually my boys LOL. You know boys! It was fun I loved it. I used to talk to my sister on the phone almost every night for like 3 hours. We would always wonder what they would all be like when they got older. We would talk about when they get married and all that good stuff. As I have told you before I don't know what alien has come and taken my sister but I want her back. She is so different now even to her kids. Her girls are 22, 19 and 15 now. The only one living with her is K. Which because my sister has an attitude towards me now I don't get to see K much. The only time I get to see her is when her dad brings her over. My sister has a fit over that because I should not like him anymore because they are divorced. I say BlAH to that. Yesterday at work my cell rang and it showed up as K. I picked it up and said "oh my oh my your calling me". On the other end I hear a hysterical K. My sister is out of town and she is home with the wonderful (sarcasm) soon to be step-dad. I was like "OMG are you ok" she was sobbing like a baby. She said "Aunt Kelly Don (step-dad) won't stop texting my phone and I got in trouble at school now at soccer I asked him to stop and he won't". I said "K what is it you want me to do?". She said "can you call him and tell him to stop my coach is mad at me". So I said "ok give me his number and I will text him". So I texted him and asked nicely could you stop texting K she got in trouble. His response to me was mind your own business. I said when my niece calls me hysterical it is my business. Then he started with all the texts telling me how I am overstepping my bounds and he can text her phone whenever because he pays the bill. So I just ignored him. Told him to have a nice evening. I texted K back to tell her if she needed anything I would be here for her. They live 3 hours away but I swear if I had to I would drive out there and get her LOL. My sister won't be home till Thursday. I was so upset at the way he treated me. I got home and pretty much went about my business and about 8:30 last night my sister texted me telling me to mind my own business. WTH? I just don't get how we can go from being so close to this. For the most part, I have learned to accept it but it still bothers me. I mean she has pretty much shun her kids and family for this asshole she is marrying in July. Yes can you believe she is marrying him in July. Get this to, I am not invited to the wedding because she only wants people there that love her and support her. Although, she wants Marco to walk her down the isle. I was Hell no that isn't happening. She told Marco that T can pick him up on the way to the wedding. I mean doesn't that sound insane. I have prayed for peace with this situation and I have peace about it until something like yesterday happens and it brings all those feelings back. I am sad for my nieces too and my mom. She does nothing with my mom EVER! I did Dom's invitations last night and I didn't even send her one because I don't have her address and I just don't want a fight or anything at my son's party. She is Dom's Godmother. How sad is that? I did, however, invite my brother in law. The situation is just so screwed up and out of hand. I tried to make it better with her but she just thinks I am out to get her. Not sure why. It just makes me sad. Her boyfriend is a complete moron. She does not see it, although, everyone else does.

Anyway, getting back to M. She has been in California for a week and has called me every day she has been gone. It makes my heart smile! She called me yesterday and told me her and her BF were getting really dressed up and going to a nice Italian restaurant for dinner. I was like oh have fun! She called me this morning to tell me that he proposed to her last night. I was sooooo excited for her. They are like the cutest couple ever! They are perfect for each other. I just wish I could call my sister and share but I can't. That is bittersweet to me. It is the way it is though. They are planning on a fall wedding in 2010.

My girls T on the left M in the middle and K on the right.

Sarah kissing K! One day I will get these pictures right where I want them LOL. Just not today!