Firsts and Lasts

I had this done and ready to post but I got a surprise visit from my director who was standing right behind me so I just hit the sign out button and lost it all LOL. That was how my morning started yesterday.

I have shared so many first things with Dom. First word, first step, first day of pre-school, first day of kindergarten etc... I find myself now sharing with him last HS band concert, awards night, football game etc... I have so many bittersweet feelings towards this. He was my only child for 3 years and I used to play with him like I was a kid. He was the sunshine in my life and still is. It is just different LOL. I am so proud of the man he has become but I am sad that he is pretty much an adult now. I know it is confusing to me too. Where did the years go? It seems like yesterday when I was teaching him the sound a dog makes. We have new firsts coming up that I am excited about and so is he. First day of college and hopefully his first job. I went to his awards night last night and he got 7 awards! I told him his neck is gonna be sore on commencement day because he has so many ropes and metals. He will walk across that stage on June 7th and I will sit in the audience and cry. My baby is a man! After he received his last award I was looking all over for him to take pictures and I couldn't find him. I called him and said where are you? He told me "Oh I left and am on my way to dinner with my friends". I was like ok. This is why I am sad because I am no longer the main person in his life :( It is ok is the natural thing for him to do it is just I am struggling with it. I know he loves me. When he got home last night I was lying on the bed watching TV he came in the room and said "mom tomorrow on Facebook I am gonna write a letter to you because without you I could not achieve these" (he was holding up his awards and ropes). I flew up off the bed and gave him a huge hug and said thank you for acknowledging that. I have checked Facebook like 30 times this morning but he is probably not even up yet LOL. On another note, sitting in those awards last night when he walked on stage and the whole auditorium was quiet I swear I wanted to get up and yell something to the tune of "OMG OMG THAT IS MY CHILD" LOL. I contained myself tho and didn't because he would be moritified LOL. I just wonder what the response would be from all the other people tho. I am sure they would laugh because they are probably thinking the same thing about their child.

So the sister thing I am not sure if I mentioned it or not but she did call my X husband and asked his permission for my twins to go to her wedding. Can you even believe that???? She never got along with him at all and he didn't like her either. I wonder what that conversation was like LOL. I am still working on my forgiveness and it is getting better with each day that passes.

The weather here is beautiful. Tonight we are going to a classic car night at an outdoor patio tiki bar. It should be fun! I love my Chevelle! I will have to get some pictures tonight of it to show you. It is loud, fast and I love it! I have mastered how to do a doughnut in it! It will be fun but I can't drink too much because I have to work tomorrow.

I hope everyone has a good holiday weekend!