The dream

I will start this out by saying that by nature I am a flirt. I don't mean anything by it at all it is just my personality. If I am drinking it gets worse. I hold my marriage very sacred and would never do anything to harm that.

Colleen's BF has a brother we will just call him K. The first time I met him was before I married to Nick so probably like 2004 or so. I went to Colleen's house and he was there. She introduced us and I said hi nice to meet you. We stayed and visited for awhile just talking and laughing. K is married and at the time had one daugther and another on the way. I got up in the kitchen to get something to drink and he walked over and started like messing around hitting me and stuff. I was hitting right back at him because I don't take that shit from nobody LOL. Then all of a sudden he picked me up and twirled me in a circle. I was like OK I can't top that one because I can't pick you up. He is cute and I didn't think anything of it because like I said he is married and I was engaged to Nick. Colleen would tell me little tidbits here and there like K thinks your hot and I was flattered of course but that was it. She always said I know that if you two weren't involved with someone else you would be together. That could very well be a possiblity but the idea is null and void because I am married to man I love. Everytime we would get together when I was alone he would always flirt with me even if his wife is around. Personally I would of got pissed if I was his wife because he always takes it a step farther. I like him in the friendship way so it is hard to get mad at him. He is fun to be around too. When Nick was around he would never do anything out of the way because he didn't want to piss him off. Nick and K are friends now too so now K thinks it is ok because Nick does not get mad. Nick knows how I feel about our marriage and has no threat at all to it. Now K feels he can do whatever he wants and sometimes it is funny and sometimes not so much.

Lets back up to a few weeks ago we went to his house for a BBQ on Memorial Weekend. We got there at about 6:00 and K was feeling no pain. Nick and I walked in the backyard and he walked over picked me up and gave me a big hug and shook Nick's hand. We were enjoying ourselves sitting and eating. K says in front of everyone damn she is beautiful. I had no idea he was talking about me so he says you Kelly I mean you. I said thank you. The night went on and I had to go to the bathroom. I went inside his house and he followed me and started knocking on the door. I was like hello??? Hurry up he said. I said ok I will. I came out of the bathroom and he had a big smile on his face I continued to walk out. I gave Nick a big hug when I got outside because I was feeling kinda weird about the situation. The night went on and he kept wanting me to lift my shirt LOL. I was like Oh hell no I don't do that. Nick kept looking at me like don't you dare. I would not do that ever! When I was younger yeah I would of done it in a heartbeat but now hell NO! So K kept saying it over and over like a broken record. His wife was getting a tad bit annoyed and I don't blame her. When we got in the car to come home Nick said Damn K was not holding back tonight and I said yeah it was making me a little bit uncomfortable. Nick will also tease me when he knows he is gonna be where we are going and say oh are you getting dressed up for K. It is totally a joke.

So lets get to this dream I had last night... I dreamt that I kissed him ???!!!???? WTH is that all about? I have always had this thing that I can tell if I really like someone the first time we kiss and if it is not there it is not there. In this dream it was totally not there. I am just wondering why the hell I would dream about kissing him? It has been bothering me all morning. I am totally in love with Nick and would never do anything to harm that so why would I dream about kissing someone else??? Does anyone have any input on this? I have always wondered if dreams tell your real emotions?

On a totally different note I have had sinus problems for the past year really and when I found out that I needed a root canal on my top tooth I kinda thought that was maybe why I was having these sinus problems. The tooth was abcessed and it is the one right next to the front tooth. The last few months when I wake up in the morning or middle of the night my nose is always so stuffy and I can't stand it. The last 2 mornings I have woke up with a clear nose! It must of been that tooth. I am so glad about this because I was started to get really annoyed with it. I guess it makes sense the end of the root sits right on your sinuses so if it is infected then I guess your sinuses can become bothered too.

It is raining here today :( I hope everyone has a good day!